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ad-rock’s hair threw the first brick.

Miriam’s mother telling the kids not to open any wrappers at night because it was against their faith to strain themselves, not to indulge themselves.

“‘I don’t think my mother will ever accept me,’ I said. This freaked Ben out more than cardio. He paid quickly and left” (138)

“This is what made it so delicious — the knowledge that underneath all those carbs and fat was chicken, which could have been healthy, but for the sake of taste was not. It was like a Fuck You to chicken. It was like a Fuck You to everything!” (91)

“ I realized that my messiness caused me no embarrassment. I hadn’t been propelled back through the portal from pleasure to shame. I felt like an innocent, a little girl who had done nothing wrong. I was cute in my joy and mess.” (62)

immediately enjoyable, very cathartic which makes me worried. what new rituals shall I adopt through my inability to differentiate reality from fiction?
“How good could she be if she was willing to deal with Blue Shield?“ (pg. 15)

“Why, you will go home and then you will find that home is not home anymore. Then you will really be in trouble. As long as you stay here, you can always think: one day I will go home.” (116)

The beast which Giovanni had awakened me, would never go to sleep again; but one day I would not be with Giovanni anymore. And would I then, like all the others, find myself turning and following all kinds of boys down God knows what dark avenues, into what dark places? With this fearful intimation there opened in me a hatred for Giovanni, which was as powerful as my love and which was nourished by the same roots.

“ I did not want to think that my life would be like his, or that my mind would ever grow so pale, so without hard places and sharp, sheer drops.” (pg. 17)

syd and alec said i like books that are dramatic and exhausting

"Well nobody’s trying to be anything out in California,"… "So you will fit right in." (pg. 296)

man this book is so cold to me like flippantly depressing like it doesn’t even care about my feelings yk? and it’s just hitting me how the tone of cel’s chapters feel so much more light hearted because she’s not so weighed down by life in general yet. stakes raise with age. type shit

“It was a time of mass conversion. Young people’s sense of immortality is widely thought incorrigible, but this doesn’t match with my notes — another footnote for the anthropologists, who are, after all, are our eulogists.” (pg 215 - 16)

“Sex was a hand cuffed lightly around a single bony finger, a calyx of supplication as futile and fleeting as love itself.” (pg 217)

"She almost wishes she still had it — though as a child she hadn’t liked to touch it. She regarded it as necessary and private in a way just short of ugly" (pg 175)

“‘Identify basically as a person. Gotcha.’” (125)

“‘Hi,’ he says.
‘Hi,’ Cel adds, because this seems to be what’s being said.” (128)

umm i LOLed

“When I am too sad and too skinny to keep keeping, when I am a tiny thing against so many bricks, then it is I look at trees. When there is nothing left to look at on this street. Four who grew despite concrete. Four who reach and do not forget to reach. Four whose only reason is to be and be.” (pg 75)

a lot of vocab i’m unfamiliar with but it’s chill. it’s cool whenever i actually understand the tone and references.

"This ghost that runs after you,
my brother, is more beautiful than you;
why do you not give him your
flesh and your bones?"

- Nietzsche

“Her bathrobe fell open around her shoulders like a fur stole. There was nothing that woman couldn’t get away with.” (pg. 204)