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I been taking naps instead of reading in the car like I wanted to. I been seeing a lot of poems on Twitter so I pulled this out from my childhood memories and started reading. I cannot remember what Elementary version of Ngoc thought of this, but I imagine we share similar feelings. Though this time around, with the experiences I gained, the words are hitting harder than I thought.

Depressing ass book, but this is on me for thinking that a book titled “The Well of Loneliness” would be anything but depressing. Sigh. I find the relationship between Stephan and her parents to be so interesting and heart wrenching simultaneously. I wonder if her mom would’ve been more loving if the setting was today where societal pressure wouldn’t influence her. Poor dear Stephan, you were born too early

You know I lowkey didn’t realize that it would this slow, not that it is. I assumed that she had aged up, but she’s only 8. Makes it all the more sadder. The disconnect between Stephan and her mom truly breaks my heary

This book is looking long as hell but Radclyffe has such a beautiful way of writing emotions in a relatable way as well. Also w dad for being Mr.Woke-3000, but dude also manifested a bit too hard so he kind of has to

DAMN EVERYONE ACTUALLY HATES THEM. I thought main girl was imagining it because of spite BUT THEY STARTED DEMOLISHING THEIR HOUSE. I do like this book. It’s fun trying to dissect the characters

Definitely a slow start but maybe because I was bit lost on what I was reading. It picked up a lot though so heheh.

EVERYTHING IS TANGLED. EVERYTHING. It’s so hard to unravel the strings and seemingly people rather keeping yanking at it instead of trying to carefully untangle it. I’m about to be done with this book. I think this book does what it needs to do very successfully because I can see or feel a fraction of the justified anger.

There are a lot of things that I feel like I and others joke about that seem funny to ourselves because we don’t realize that we are excluding and outcasting others who go through that. There was also a lot of things that I related to too especially in my past experiences. I want to be more mindful going forward. Not in a way that is infantilizing though. I will have to try harder

Finished part 2. My favorite essays for this part was the one about rage and the one where the author dedicated her book to her friend. Very lovely.

I will have to reread the Common Cyborg one because she lost me there for a second and I do want to understand what she is talking about. Regardless, I am done with Part 1: Being!

I read four stories for part 1 today and it was interesting learning more about these people’s lives or their frustrations. There’s some things where I relate due to my experience with my health, but there are other things that I haven’t even considered such as how harmful a word can be on a medical form (in relations to Indigenous people being forced to select “Native American”). A great read so far

I’m so sad

One more thing, LEAVE THAT POOR WOMAN ALONE. I’m so frustrated for her.

I’m a bit slow so I thought that the parts were short stories, BUT THEY’RE CONNECTED. AND MAN O MEN, disgusting!

I’m so disturbed like DAMN THE WOMAN JUST WANNA BE VEGETARIAN. It’s more complicated than that but I can’t put it into words at the moment

I sense that there is a deeper meaning that the Wife’s vegetarianism represents but I cannot think what it could be. Perhaps I will figure it out later, but for now hmmm

ANOTHER BOOK ANOTHER ME MUHAHAH

My brain, no comprede. I shall continue and hope to make sense of it all

Personally I am enjoying this book more as I read it. I feel strangely comforted that the negative feelings and insecurities was covered in this book, so it makes me feel that I am not alone. Though, I can see why people would dislike this book because the “youth” brings up good arguments, but the philosopher would kind of brush him up with a brief explanation of an Adler concept and that is it. Read more…

I will not be so bitter anymore about their happiness. Joy is good. Light novels be as hell though because why is there still 120 chapters left?

I been doing a lot of reflecting and I’m not sure I like what has been reflected. I’m aware of my intentions behind my actions. I felt shamed.

Separation of tasks, other people’s opinions don’t matter, and only I can change my life…I DON’T TO. I’M SCARED. I hate this book. I hate it so much. It’s like a slap to the face with each page that I read.

If all issues stem from interpersonal relationships, then there’s only one solution. ISOLATE MYSELF FROM EVERY HUMAN POSSIBLE. Yes yes, that was exactly what Adlerian was going for. Hahahahahahaha.

Today’s portion focused on inferiority and interpersonal relationships. I find myself questioning the philosopher’s words but reminded myself that Adlerian psychology explains why humans may act the way they do. It’s not a solution or a guide. Regardless, I don’t like this book because it calls me out. I am turning a blind eye.

I’m having a hard time reading this because of all the conflicting feelings I have. I don’t think I ever heard of Adlerian Psychology, but man it’s rough. I guess it’s hopeful in its own way, but right now it’s literally attacking me so…I’m done for today

I would read more but those two are so lovingly sweet that it just made me feel depressed and lonely. LOVE THAT FOR THEM, but I’m in a sensitive mood due to lack of sleep and emotional whiplash. ILL SAVE THE SUGAR FOR A HAPPIER NGOC

I tried my best but I could not stay away so I performed my responsibilities well to get this reward. AND BOY OH BOY WAS IT WORTH IT! HEH, SCREW DOSTOEVSKY.