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“They dug each other’s references and felt smarter in each other’s presence”

Maybe I actually want to be straight married is this (this is) my acceptance of the existence of heterosexual desire??? but maybe more difficult to comprehend the familial formerly romantic love in a heterosexual context: it is sweet!

Ok but I am loving this one just as I suspected I would also I miss the IE

Al-anon landlord book with art critic twist

Getting the ick

solitude, passing euphorias, self-castigation, fatalism, rage

sagehen 4 sagehen

Needed something to listen to while reading. A bit like a list of slogans idk

“Why did I keep taking on all of this - this shit and keep feeling it after it had passed through me a hundred million times?”

When I feel so down like I can’t go on I come back to Emin and something shifts, an opening

“Sweeping up fur & feathers off my floor. It’s spring, everybody is molting.”

Thinking about planting milkweed in 9th grade science class, what the word “processing” means, actionability or lack thereof

In the stacks and I see “birth trauma… the inevitable psychic shock of being born” so delicious

“I was crazy, he assured me, and stupid, and I believed it. This too was a kind of penetration, a skull fuck”

Sounds silly but I remember seeing Oliver in a tutu many years ago and suddenly being able to imagine parenthood for myself funny how these things are,, kind of regret not seeing the show when I was home

tumultuous, provisional

The Cookie series got me. This book made me want to get nonexpired film and care about photo as much as I did when I was 15. A lot of pictures I hadn’t seen before, I particularly liked the still lives and landscapes. Beautiful beautiful book.

“…her purview additionally takes on friends, lovers, artifacts, clothing, rooms: a soul’s context”

“For a sensitive child raised in a loveless darkness, light must always have played a heightened role”, thinking about all of the letters from his mom in that one box, her desperation for connection, mismatched realities

There’s something about unfettered emotionality (and springtime) that makes me fall in love with living

I get the feeling I’m about to be born and can’t.

“…caught in a state I mean stare I mean the act of seeing and being seen”

“When I listened to Phyllis talk, my brain melted because I was fed more information than I had the stamina to process, and everything she said seemed intuitively true”

Live for this feeling!

Making me realize how important taking pictures is, probably something about memory attention attunement or whatnot, unexpected but glad for the documentation drive

unfounded glee

!!!

Literally every other word is “abjection” or “oeuvre” or “pastiche”

“Even though Emin’s work would suggest she’s having the worst time imaginable, hers — and by association her spectator’s — is an art and a life predicated upon the possibility of pleasure… Even when it’s bad, it’s good”

!!!

Take me to you, imprison me, for I,
Except you enthrall me, never shall be free,
Nor ever chaste, except you ravish me.

Obsessed with God as Lover, thinking about how the priest at my middle school said he couldn’t have a wife because he was married to God, covenant etc etc

O cautery so tender!
O pampered wound!


Weeeeepy in the library, beautiful collection

How much are you willing to withstand? That’s what we ought to ask newborns, before we give them a name.

Love how sparse and was reading about the influence of legal language