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I love you the way we love those who’ve left long ago and those who haven’t yet arrived, those we’ve never seen or who’ve never yet existed.

Peace was not a feeling, it was a place: the grass that already reached our knees; the animals racing by, seen by us as mere movement sketched amid the brush.

“The realm of silence, I said, when will you return from the realm of silence?”
- Eider Rodriguez

But when you’re drowning, you’ll grab anything to keep yourself afloat.

There is no truth to be discovered in safety. If you have any expectation of rescue, part of you will hold back. Only when every layer of comfort and security is stripped away will the true raw heart of your courage be tested.

I think some people, when they die - or even before they die - they stick around not as ghosts, but by sort of infecting the people they come in contact with.

Entropy. We’re complex systems. A thousand things have to go right for us to be alive and sentient, and anything going wrong disrupts that system. Death is just things getting out of joint enough that the system that is you isn’t there anymore. All the pieces might still be around, but rearrange them and you aren’t there anymore.

But beyond everything else, we are the decisions we make. In all their dimensions. With every choice, we take a step forward and abandon something along the way. Or take a step back, and we abandon whatever was to come.

Not only are we what we do; we’re also what we don’t do. What we say and what we silence. We are the questions we don’t dare to ask, and the answers that will never come and will float there forever, blown about by fear and uncertainty.

But it’s the searching that’s so hard for me.

Everything that’s lost can be found.

Because you can never move forward if you’re constantly looking back and I can’t let myself harbor doubts right now.

It is much more difficult to judge oneself than to judge others. If you succeed in judging yourself rightly, then you are indeed a man of true wisdom.

All grown-ups were once children - although few of them remember it.

Sometimes the turns life takes are okay.

“It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.”
- The Little Prince

Not to mention the memories themselves. Don’t you think we distort them sometimes? Memories…they’re moldable; they change, depending on the perspective and mind of the person they belong to.

The whole house is still full of photographs. I think I don’t like them because they’re the prologue to a story that only the people there know about.

“Well, I must endure the presence of two or three caterpillars if I wish to become acquainted with butterflies.”
- The Little Prince

He fell in love with the flower and not with its roots, and in autumn, he didn’t know what to do.

Memories are much more than they seem.

Don’t you remember what Einstein supposedly said? “If the bee disappeared off the surface of the globe, then man would only have four years of life left.”

We convince ourselves we want to be a certain way that doesn’t come naturally from within us, and we don’t even really like it. It doesn’t fulfill us; it doesn’t move us; we force it. And we keep trying. And the years pass. You start doing this thing and that thing, and you convince yourself that you can be happy since everyone else is. But you know what? It’s not true. And one day, you find that.

I like thinking that we share the same insanity.

As if you could pick in love, as if it were not a lightning bolt that splits your bones and leaves you staked out in the middle of a courtyard.

—Julio Cortázar, Hopscotch

Little girls should not be required to be so brave.

Sometimes the most obvious truths of our world are the ones that get buried most easily

“It demanded that you not sit back and trust the world to grant you a single kindness or break. Anything good it gave you could be stolen right back if you weren’t vigilant.”

“Of the many things wealth was good for, one of the most under appreciated was that it allowed you to purchase self-absolution.”