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because the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn

#ihatemyboyfriend damn

bennington jumpscare

i keep having to take breaks. it’s literally making me sick to my stomach

“change of self is loss of self to these poets”

“seeing my hole, i know my hole”😉

if you love me, you hate me. and if you hate me, you love me. now if you don’t hate me, beloved, don’t love me

she was frantic to understand the mechanism of rejection, and whether it could be undone

slay music references. “figuring out what was wrong with her seemed like the most important question of Vivian’s life and it wasn’t even a question she posed. the question, despite her atheism, felt as if posed by God. and it wouldn’t matter what any therapist or friend or even matthew himself said, she knew it was something about her that had ruined her life”

only eve babitz could casually drop that cathy, a girl that dressed next to her in gym, ended up becoming gypsy in the manson family

In his forty-third year William Stoner learned what others, much younger, had learned before him: that the person one loves at first id not the person one loves at last, and that love is not an end but a process through which one person attempts to know another.

“He took a grim and ironic pleasure from the possibility that what little learning he had managed to acquire had led him to this knowledge: that in the long run all things, even the learning that let him know this, were futile and empty, and at last diminished into a nothingness they did not alter”