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bechi hai sehr ke haathon
raaton ki siyahi tumne
kii hai jo tabahi tumne
kisi roz sazaa paoge

”I was all at once very tired. I looked out into the narrow street, this strange, crooked corner where we sat, which was brazen now with the sunlight and heavy with people— people I would never understand.”

“Your father or mine, should have told us that not many people have ever died of love. But multitudes have perished, and are perishing every hour — and in the oddest places! — for the lack of it.”

“People who remember court madness through pain, the pain of perpetually recurring death of their innocence; people who forget court another kind of madness, the madness of the denial of pain and the hatred of innocence; and the world is mostly divided between madmen who remember and madmen who forget.”

“When one begins to search for the crucial, the definitive moment, the moment which changed all others, one finds oneself pressing, in great pain, through a maze of false signals and abruptly locking doors."

“I could see everything in full color. Everything in absolute silence. Not everyone is given the fleeting plunge into one’s own mysterious flesh. This body of mine that is autonomous and surely electronic. No machine makes me live. My body is alive and works like a factory working in absolute silence.”

“When I look at myself from the outside in I am the bark of a tree and not the tree. I didn’t feel pleasure. After I recovered my contact with myself I impregnated myself and the result was the agitated birth of a pleasure completely different from what they call pleasure.”

“I’ve always wanted to find someday a person who would live for me because life is so full of useless things that I can only bear it through extreme muscular asthenia, I suffer from moral indolence in living. I tried to make Angela live in my place — but she too wants only the climax of life.”

Peace be upon you, Lispector, my love and my undoing.