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“I could see everything in full color. Everything in absolute silence. Not everyone is given the fleeting plunge into one’s own mysterious flesh. This body of mine that is autonomous and surely electronic. No machine makes me live. My body is alive and works like a factory working in absolute silence.”

“When I look at myself from the outside in I am the bark of a tree and not the tree. I didn’t feel pleasure. After I recovered my contact with myself I impregnated myself and the result was the agitated birth of a pleasure completely different from what they call pleasure.”

“I’ve always wanted to find someday a person who would live for me because life is so full of useless things that I can only bear it through extreme muscular asthenia, I suffer from moral indolence in living. I tried to make Angela live in my place — but she too wants only the climax of life.”

Peace be upon you, Lispector, my love and my undoing.