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FUCKING FINALLY

"I've been given so much in this life," Hugo said last year in a speech to the Human Rights Campaign. "But I've had to fight tooth and nail for it. If I can one day leave this world a little bit safer and a little bit easier for those who come after me... well, that just might make it all worth it."

“Say to them, "Evelyn Hugo just wants to go home. It's time for her to go to her daughter, and her lover, and her best friend, and her mother." Tell them Evelyn Hugo says good-bye.”

“THAT'S HOW MY STORY ENDS. With the loss of everyone I have ever loved. With me, in a big, beautiful Upper East Side apartment, missing everyone who ever meant anything to me.”

“She made it eighteen months before she passed away.
And when they put her in the ground next to her father, I broke like I have never broken before. The devastating luxury of panic overtook me. And it has never left.”

"I have been married seven times, and never once has it felt half as right as this. I think that loving you has been the truest thing about me."

"I think being yourself-your true, entire self—is always going to feel like you're swimming upstream."

“We could have made it easier on ourselves that way."
I could feel Celia shaking her head next to me. "But that's not who we are, that's not who we have ever been or could ever be."

I loved being able to show a part of myself that I had long buried. I was happy to find that when I dug it up, that part was still there, waiting for me.

Everyone sort of assumes that when faced with life-and-death situations, you will panic. But almost everyone who's actually experienced something like that will tell you that panic is a luxury you cannot afford

But everyone, for what had felt like my whole life, had always been divided into "Celia" and "not Celia." Every other woman I considered striking up a conversation with might as well have had "not Celia" stamped on her forehead. If I was going to risk my career and everything I loved for a woman, it was going to be her.
"There is no she but you," I told her.

“"She always made sure the bad was outweighed by so much good. I ... well, I didn't do that for her. I made it fifty-fifty. Which is about the cruelest thing you can do to someone you love, give them just enough good to make them stick through a hell of a lot of bad.”

"There's a difference between sexuality and sex. I used sex to get what I wanted. Sex is just an act. Sexuality is a sincere expression of desire and pleasure. That I always kept for Celia."

“forgiveness is different from absolution.”

“But because of who I was, because of the sacrifices I made to hide parts of myself, I was able to give more money than most people ever see in their entire lifetime.”

"You shouldn't have left me, Celia."
"You shouldn't have let me leave."