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‘The world was beautiful, and she was so grateful to be in it. To be alive, to be here, to see this. She stuck out a hand over the railing, grazing a star as it shot past, and her fingers came away glowing with blue and green dust. She laughed, a sound of pure joy, and she cried more, because that joy was a miracle.’

‘She didn’t want to be in her head, didn’t want to be in her body. Wanted the beating of the drums and the riotous song of a fiddle to fill her with sound, to silence any thought. Wanted to find a bottle of wine and drink deep, let the wine pull her out of herself, set her mind drifting and numb.’

‘Say it's the wine that leads me on, the wild wine that sets the wisest man to sing at the top of his lungs, laugh like a fool—it drives the man to dancing... it even tempts him to blurt out stories better never told.
But now that I'm sounding off, I can't hold back.’

‘He wanted to live life in such a way that if a photograph were taken at random, it would be a cool photograph. Things should look right. Fun; there should be a lot of fun and no more sadness than absolutely
necessary.’

‘She hadn't felt anything in months. Had days when she didn't really know where she was or what she'd done. They passed swiftly and yet dripped by.
So did the months: She'd blinked, and winter had fallen. Blinked,
and her body had turned too thin. As hollow as she felt.’

“We women have something of the mother in us that makes us rise above smaller matters when the mother spirit is invoked. I felt this big sorrowing man's head resting on me, as though it were that of a baby that someday may lie on my bosom, and I stroked his hair as though he were my own child. I never thought at the time how strange it all was.”

"You do not want to sleep?"
"No. I am afraid."
"Afraid to go to sleep! Why so! It is the boon we all crave for."
"Ah, not if you were like me, if sleep was to you a presage of horror!"
"A presage of horror! What on earth do you mean?"
"I don't know. Oh, I don't know. And that is what is so terrible. All this weakness comes to me in sleep, until I dread the very thought."