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OH BABY IM HAVING A GOOD ASS TIME RIGHT UP IN HERE

So you made me go through the agonising experience of reading all of that shit just to say that you don’t want to do it again?? You fucking asshole.

I didn’t know this book would be a why choose and now I’m freaking out cause this is my first one and I was hoping for a less kinky first step into the genre. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK AM I READING??

Yall are telling them NOW?? At 64%??? What, is the rest of this book gonna be angst?? What’s the deal? I’m gonna riot if this book is sad. I wanted fluffy you dumb bat.

WHATS WITH THE FEET STUFF??? Anything but feet stuff. PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING HOLY STOP WITH THE FEET STUFF. Ffs.

I swear to fuck, if there’s feet stuff in this book imma bout to throw my kindle across the damn room.

I can get down with the daddy stuff. But this man keeps on calling himself daddy in third person and it’s making me uncomfortable and is crossing a line that I’m unsure can be uncrossed after this book is done. I have never made so much noise while reading a book. My neighbours probably think I’m having a heated debate with someone I don’t like and don’t understand.

This is too close to furry territory for me to fully be into it. What do you mean you scratch him behind the ear like a dog?? Patting his hair. Sure. That’s kinda normal I suppose. Like, whatever floats your boat and all that, but I think I might have to deploy the lifeboats on this one and get the hell outta here.

This is getting into “I’m uncomfortable and a little turned on” territory.

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING TO ME

SOMEONE COME COLLECT THEIR DADS CAUSE THEY’RE PISSING ME OFF WITH THEIR HOMOPHOBIC ASSES.

I LOVE THEM.

Sooo, I have thoughts:
1. Alexei SO knows. Mans is on the scent.
2. Yulian and Lev are SO doing it. Book 3 is about to be so hot.
3. I am all in for this plan to kill the dad. Mans needs to be put to rest. Kinda iconic that all of said man’s children hate him so much they’re plotting his murder.
4. Wtf is going on with the whole “find Danya’s family” plot?? So many unanswered questions.

A review I read said “there’s absolutely nothing right about their relationship, but it still makes complete sense” and I feel that at a spiritual level for this book. I’m scared, because I should have some moral high ground that stops me from loving this book, and yet… I’m kinda down to get freaky with these boys… ?? (Send me to a mental institution STAT y’all. I need help.)

This is breaking my fucking heart. Reading these men fall in love, all the while KNOWING that Enzo is gonna be taken down because of Tom. And how painful it is for Tom to know this, but also be slowly falling more and more for Enzo. And Enzo being unaware of the true danger he’s in, and coming to terms with knowing he’ll never be able to love freely and openly in his world. MY HEART IS BREAKING.

This book is giving “when rain falls by CE Ricci” and it makes me ANGRY. I really hate the “using intimacy as revenge” trope in books. LIKE MAN. Yall really say: you raped me, so now imma rape you. And be okay with that shit?? Ahhhhh it makes me so heartbroken. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BREAK THESE BABIES SO THOROUGHLY??

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS BOOK IM SOBBING THIS ISNT FAIR. WHAT DO YOU MEAN THERES BLOOD EVERYWHERE. WHAT DO YOU MEAN. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO MY BABY. HUCK BABY BOY. THE MENTAL HEALTH REP IN THIS IS TOO REAL AND IM FULLY SOBBING RIGHT NOW ITS NOT FAIR.

I’m genuinely like so gone for these boys. How am I only on 23% of the damn book and yet so much has happened?? I’m like. This 23%, if it was expanded on, could be a whole ass book. I kinda love Taylor, but also I hate how much I love him. Like- he’s so horrible, but I have so much empathy for him. And HUCK BABY BOY. MAN. I WOULD GO TO WAR FOR YOU. I fear I sense a sob coming up.

ITS THE FUCKING FATHER ISNT IT????? ITS GOTTA BE THAT PIECE OF SHIT HOMOPHOBIC MAN CHILD.

Two of my favourite tropes are: 1. Making breakfast in bed for your partner & 2. One character doing the cringy Love Actually sign holding thing after showing up unexpectedly at the other character’s house. AND BOTH OF THESE HAPPENED WITHIN 2 CHAPTERS?? THANK YOU I CAN DIE A HAPPY WOMAN. Nico you are so baby girl, I love you, you treat Felix so well, he’s literally your baby boy and I love it.

IF KAI LETS ALEX GO BACK TO THAT EVIL HOUSE I WILL SCREAM. THIS IS NOT OKAY. YOU NEVER PROMISE A VICTIM OF ABUSE THAT YOU WONT TELL ANYONE. EVER. CAUSE YOU CANT KEEP THAT FUCKING PROMISE. IM SO MAD I HAD TO PUT THE STUPID BOOK DOWN SO I COULD PREPARE MYSELF FOR THE POSSIBILITY THAT KAI WOULD BE DUMB ENOUGH TO LET IT SLIDE. I THINK I WOULD HAVE BROKE MY KINDLE CLEAN IN HALF IF HE DID. PLEASE. TAKE. HIM. WITH. YOU.

IMMA CRY WHY ARE YALL SO STUPID. JUST TALK. TO. EACH. OTHER. WTH ARE YALL DOING OUT HERE.

I LOVE ADAM. MANS IS OUT HERE BLUSHING FOR OLIVE. SUCH A FUCKING SIMP I LOVE IT.

How do I get off this roller coaster ride of hell and get back to my fluffy gay shit from 2 chapters ago??

YOU FUCKING IDIOT RAIN. RIVER IS IN THE FUCKING DOORWAY. HOW CAN YOU BE SO FUCKING STUPID YOU ABSOLUTE FUCKWIT. ITS 11 FUCKING PM AND YOU JUST MADE ME AUDIBLY SCREAM IN MY BEDROOM WITH A HOUSE FULL OF FUCKING PEOPLE. I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW I CANT EVEN FINISH THIS FUCKING CHAPTER WITH 1 MINUTE LEFT BECAUSE I KNOW RIVER IS GONNA BE THERE AND IM GONNA HAVE A MENTY B OVER THIS BULLSHIT. FUCK YOU AND YOUR FUCKING SHIT.

I AM FUCKING ANGRY. RAIN YOU ARE SUCH A STUPID FUCKING BOY CHILD. THIS BOOK IS TEARING MY HEART OUT AND I DONT THINK ILL EVER FIND IT AGAIN. HOW CAN THERE BE A RESOLUTION TO THIS FUCK ASS BOOK. IT IS SO FUCKING SAD I HONESTLY DONT KNOW HOW RIVER IS EVER GONNA FORGIVE RAIN FOR BEING A DICK. WHAT ARE YOU HIDING RAIN??? IF I KNEW MAYBE ID BE LESS MAD. BUT RIGHT NOW I LITERALLY CANNOT WITH YOU. YOU BITCH ASS MAN CHILD.

RAIN. I LOVE YOU. BUT WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING.

My babies are in so much pain. I’m crying at the gosh darn club rn. It’s almost too painful to read. I’m at 30 fucking percent of this damn book and there’s no resolution in sight. I understand why this had to be a duet, but like- you made me fall in love with these boys in book one and now the entirety of book two is them being in pain, away from each other. Like, FUCK YOU CE Ricci. That’s so not cool.