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"When I got hurt, she felt it so deeply, it was as though it were her own affliction. She was guilty only of caring too much. I realize this now in retrospect. No one in this world would ever love me as much as my mother, and she would never let me forget it."

"In the beginning I was so young and such a stranger to myself I hardly existed. I had to go out into the world and see it and hear it and react to it, before I knew at all who I was, what I was, what I wanted to be."

thought i wouldnt like the first novella, but after reaching the last page, i found myself lingering on d’s "Why is my loved one not with me?" as i kept rereading the homecoming part over and over. even though i feel like the topics that hwang jungeun brought up in "d" may be a little too grand for a novella, which at times made it feel fragmented, but overall the message and nuance still came across.

"Shame is what saved me. (...) Yes, it may well be a hundred years ago now, but in all those years it’s stayed with me. (...) My grandchild and daughter say I live in a scrapheap and they’re ashamed of it, but I don’t see the shame. I know shame, and this isn’t it. It’s natural, not shameful, for the living to be surrounded by life’s scraps, natural and unavoidable."

Holy sht literally changing my brain chemicals 😭 the first essay is so well written

"People. You must love people. Men are admirable. I want to vomit—and suddenly, there it is: the Nausea”

fucking hell, i should have read this sooner

god i love reading dr meg jay's books.
the way she drops brain facts with analogies and i just eat them up every time.

being a twentysomething post 2020s sucks so bad gawd

hell really is other people

"I'm not writing for the sheer joy of writing; so many things have happened to me that I must write if I am not to lose my reason.
(...) For I am frightened. Fear creeps up on me from all sides, and I don't want to wait until it gets to me and overpowers me. I shall write until darkness falls, and this new, unfamilliar work should make my mind tired, empty and drowsy."

WHERE IS MY RAYMOND 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I just know she's on the spectrum by the number of times that she said she's doing research for a certain thing lmao.

gacha game has taken such a toll on my psyche that i ended up having to investigate why and how. worth it.

the way i vibe so bad with e6 description rahhhhhhhh

Reread again for notetaking.
The illustrations are so pretty😭 it's exactly what it feels like to have anxiety

straight up "im in this picture and i dont like it" moment