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“Within the clinical language, through the dispassionate view of the sucking, sweating, greedy, defecating self, I found a love-poem to Louise. I would go on knowing her, more intimately than the skin, hair, and the voice that I craved. I would have her plasma, her spleen, her synovial fluid. I would recognize her even when her body had long since fallen away.”

“I didn’t only want Louise’s flesh, I wanted her bones, her blood, her tissues, the sinews that bound her together. I would have held her next to me though time had stripped away the tones and textures of her skin. I could have held her for a thousand years until the skeleton itself rubbed away to dust. What are you that makes me feel thus? Who are you for whom time has no meaning?”

You have got to be kidding me… chapter 15 is literally not real. I think if you rate this book higher than like… a 3 after that you can’t read or something because genuinely what the fuck 😭

A couple thoughts…
- Why is Joey British….? I’m choosing to ignore that.
- I love the way they describe her though #needthat
- Abby is getting real annoying but I do understand why she’s like this. Can’t wait for her redemption arc.

i have never felt a feeling so visceral in my life

wanted to read her diary for a while so glad to be getting around to it…

so far very interesting!

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