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“your father laughs just like you, at the opacity. I want to eat the laugh, I want to rub it on my chest like camphor, I want to make a sound tattoo. I also want to bash these two small people together and see if a collision of DNA will give me my life back”

“The law of contagion affirms that once two objects have been in contact they continue to tease each other even after the contact is severed”

“The doctor says if you were so quote perfect for me unquote you'd probably still be around, no offense” what kinda fucking doctor is this 😭

I wonder at what point does a deceased loved one no longer stay human to you? When do they begin to feel like just an entity that brings out longing and pain

“The scissors are too dull. The policeman asks, Why did I cut you down. The question abides in the present tense. Because I thought and still think maybe”

Grief is such a funny thing. When my uncle had passed away, I remember hearings things like “in loving memory of—“ and I was keenly aware that I didn’t want to remember him so young and dead. I wanted memories of him old, and I wanted much more than just memories

What the hell is Agathokakological

What the fuck

Oh my days Lennie just killed her

Why is Curley, the son of the owner, so obedient towards slim 😭

Omg Curley leave Lennie alone 😭 I just want George Lennie and candy to have their dream ranch where they’ll have rabbits

NOOO DONT KILL THE DOG LEAVE CANDY AND HIS DOG ALONE 😭😭😭

The way Carlson is describing how to kill that dead dog, I wonder if Lennie will die the same way

George is so sweet towards Lennie. And oh man, I adore Lennie

Omfg they just keep saying that slur 😭

Now why would George throw the dead mouse into a pool they were just drinking in

Alright fr this time Jude is dead 😭 Oh my days, I am emotionally drained

I feel so hopeless. I had thought Jude going to therapy and finally trying at it was a sign that maybe things could get better. But it isn’t and it wasn’t. I don’t know what else to make of this book. I don’t know how it could end on a happy note. I don’t know why but I wish Jude could just die so I could stop reading and make these characters go away

Is Harold like writing in a diary or smth? Is that why his perspective is so different from the rest of the book?

Oh god, I knew the very last section would be from the perspective of Harold

Oh god…. Jude is finally ending his life

What Jude is doing reminds me of the time I watched this YouTube animation of a girl who was very depressed but started dreaming of happiness and of a man who loves her. Then the viewer realizes that she has been taking pills to conjure up these dreams and it eventually leads to her death

“because now he knows: if he doesn’t eat, if he can last to the point just before collapse, he will begin having hallucinations, and his hallucinations might be of Willem”
Please let’s just end this

Okay genuinely why the fuck would JB kiss Jude 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Why am I already suspicious of linus… Jude wdym this doctors smile reminds u of willem 😭

Bruh wtfffff no Andy why are u giving up the practice for 😭😭😭😭 Jude needs you

Oh god, the 4 of them loved each other so much. Grief is such a devastating thing

“everything for him!—instantly. Julia, even. Harold. He would have exchanged any of them, all of them, to have Willem back. ”

Man fuck 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Jude had mentioned that Jane had cataloged her father because she was so afraid that he would die. I guess willem had done the same thing to Jude because of his own fears. But he fucking turned out to be the one to die

Omg willem had loved him so much 😭