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the characters in this make up my new nightmare blunt rotation

describes the kinds of dreams i have and the feelings they leave me with in perfect detail

how is it possible that a book that depicts England in such a decidedly unfavourable light can stir up such a longing in me?

“[…] the “sense of mass sadness” expressed in pro-ana spaces might be so eagerly censored by corporations because it poses a “threat to individualistic Western culture … Collectivist self-harm groups can provide a deep challenge to the idea that healing an individual is possible” and in turn, purchasable through treatment […]” She is just. So brilliant. I have never thought of it this way before?

i‘m just like Francis for real (in the sense that i, too, am gay and enjoy smoking several cigarettes immediately after a panic attack)

i am already so sad i will never be able to read this book for the first time again

unfortunately for me i just know that if i were in richard‘s place i would have a debilitating crush on henry, and, really, what does that say about my self-preservation instincts?

a fantastic read for people who participated in Latin reading competitions during their teenage years

it’s been a while since a book had me so completely hooked

Norsken min er ikke perfekt men jeg elsker å lese denne boka med kjæresten min <3

unbelievable … i will not be the same after reading this

“Maybe it is because we are stuck in the logic of incremental change, and the circle of pointing out we are stuck in the logic of incremental change traps us again and again and again. The world imprisons our pangs for more, who am I to think my structure of feeling will go untouched by that?” What a way to come out swinging! So in awe.

reading this with the kind of devotion that i think people usually reserve for the bible

“I know it’s a kick in the pants to hear that the problem is you, but it’s also fucking fantastic. You are, after all, the only person you can change.” is a sentence I would have benefitted from reading years ago?

lessons in radical empathy indeed … trying (and failing) to hold back tears

I am one chapter in and it’s like an actual punch to the gut. Oh my god.

oh how i long to spend my days in a cabin on a little island, drinking coffee and rowing and observing the birds and the thunderstorms :(

“I’ll be all the poets, I’ll kill them all and take each one’s place in turn, and every time love’s written in all the strands it will be to you.” möchte mich akut umbringen

oh my god oh my god oh my god

“Instead I wick the longing into thread, pass it through your needle eye, and sew it into hiding somewhere beneath my skin, embroider my next letter to you one stitch at a time.” Almost every sentence in this book stops me in my tracks and makes me want to weep, what is this insanity?

“[…] to read your letters is to gather flowers from within myself, pluck a blossom here, a fern there, arrange and rearrange them in ways to suit a sunny room.” kill me

I fear I may not be smart enough to actually understand this book but my god, the writing is so beautiful.

“I tried to picture explaining all that had happened to Miri, taking out all the small observations I’d stored up for her and laying them down in a line, but when I did so, the scene wouldn’t run correctly. The imaginary me opened her mouth and produced only a strange, whaling ocean sound and the imaginary Miri couldn’t be made to understand.” Kill me, it would hurt less!

i am so in love with this

“[…] her bright pale eyes and the shape of her mouth and the feeling when we spoke for the first time that there were vast places in the world that I had never yet thought to go.” … is so … SO …

eighteen pages in and i can already feel the devastation this will cause in me

»[…] aber jetzt dachte ich: »Lieber doch nicht«; und bis heute bin ich nicht sicher, ob das die ernstzunehmende Warnung einer inneren Stimme war oder ob es die eiskalten Füße waren, die ich stets bekomme, wenn ein großer Wunsch droht, in Erfüllung zu gehen.« Fühle mich außerordentlich gut repräsentiert und verstanden.

»Sie haben keine Panikattacke, Sie haben eingehaltene Liebe.« Ich möchte gerne weinen.

gerade erst angefangen und merke jetzt schon, dass ich das lieben werde