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I just finished Chapter 14- Katniss passed out from being stung by the tracker jackers and as I begin to read 15, I already know Rue will be there for her and realising the inevitable comes for her... I crumble 😭😭😭

30 pages in and I cannot stop reading 😭😭😭 this is just too good 😭💖

Knowing what I know with the plot, I feel such a worry for Camila

"One day, he’s going to stop following me and I need to prepare myself for it. I need to decide what my heart will allow—and what loneliness I can bear. But not yet. His warmth is with me still, and I can’t help but keep it close."

When Mare said "We can't do that anymore. Make mistakes for each other," it inexplicably struck such a deep chord in me 😭

"I'm scared to live."
"I want the pain to end."
"I have nothing to live for."

isn't the same as

"I want to die."

Love, hate, what's the difference?

I was reading about John's thoughts on sunsets diay, that's why I stopped... I've always loved sunsets. I love how the unmatched contrast between the greys and the oranges, the purples and the pinks, turns the sky into its most beautiful form. Now, I can't appreciate sunsets without him at the back of my mind. He unknowingly spoiled one of the things I love because wherever he goes, pain follows.

I don't think I can read another book after this in a while....

I think... if I was reading this without my mom in front of me. I would've already bawled my eyes out.