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“I felt steadier; I felt stronger. The doors inside me unlocked one by one, I emptied the rooms of all my shit and talked her through every piece of old toot I found in there; then I threw everything out. Every room I unlocked, I knew I was getting closer. To a sense of self, a sense of calm. And a sense of home.”—Page 240

Well the “Florence” chapter just messed me up. 😢

“So don’t tell me when you move in with your boyfriend that nothing will change. There will be no road trip. The cycle works when it comes to holidays as well—I’ll get my buddy back for every sixth summer, unless she has a baby in which case I’ll get my road trip in eighteen years’ time. It never stops happening. Everything will change.”—Page 135

Feels like it’s spinning its wheels a bit.

Oh shit 😵‍💫🫣

“Love comes in many forms. There’s the kind of love you feel for your family, the love for your friends, even for your job or your dreams—or the love for your pet, there’s nothing wrong with that either. As long as you’re not just dependent, and you can proudly call it love, the object of that love can be anything. Sometimes love can save you.”—Page 136

“It’s a mistake to believe social media is all about hearts and thumbs … But discourse is loneliness disguised as war. What people there really want is to be perceived on their own terms, which is so, so funny. Because if the grand promise of the internet was to be whoever you want, in reality it will make of you whatever ‘it’ wants, and beneath every mask is another mask mistaken for a face.”—Page 232

“For all people claim to hate being stereotyped, they love doing it to themselves, even better when someone they admire does it to them, they’re dying to be issued their personhood so they can pursue it without hesitation, hence astrology and personality quizzes.”—Page 207

“Someone tells you they want to help, and they understand your alienation, so you offer them your gratitude before understanding that their allyship is every bit about their image of themselves, far outweighing your well-being or dignity, and they’ll yeet this cumbersome ballast the moment they sense ingratitude, the very instant you obstruct their protagonism.”—Page 189