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I’m so fucking scared

“The weight of my own potential. The fear of a freedom. Doesn’t every silver lining come with a big, dark cloud?” The old man on the frontier 💔

“I can exist peripherally, if that’s what she needs.” Alright man

“Why doesn’t anybody seem to love me on the same frequency that I love them?” Aww she’s experiencing negative interference

Anna and her lack of rizz 😭

Wow this is my first time ever seeing Jesus’ name not capitalized

“I don’t think she’d make much of a detective, when she seems to think I want a boyfriend and not all of her attention.” I’m chuckling

“Oh boy here it comes, I’m about to get sexually harassed…I braced myself, a little bit excited” I’m gagged

“It’s important to find touchstones that make life sweet and bearable in the now. Perhaps later we’ll all be strong enough to reach for something beyond comfort.” Ok it’s bed time

Yeah hit me with “love is the only garden worth dying in” and fig language about bruised fruit and God and death today of all days. Okay.

“How can the world be so good and so bad at the same time? How can the climate be collapsing around my dog?” Honestly

The bit about buffalos actually got a laugh out of me; I’m *always* mourning the loss of the buffalos…

“This trip is the kind of thing where in the past the old me … it would have seemed like a good idea in the abstract but once it started I would have been miserable and terrified. But here I am on Day 4 and I just feel curious and grateful and like glowing. I just feel a glow. And it’s so beautiful here…Here’s me crying at the scenery that’s the boring landscape of these peoples everyday lives.”

That might be homophobic but I’m unsure…I’ll put a pin in this

No water or food on a hike??? Girl…

“Can a person be congenitally too soft for this world?” Literally me getting sick once per month ❤️

“This bitch was living up to MY potential” why is that actually motivational and funny

The van… 😨

“Don’t cry about finding yourself. Being lost is an illusion.” Ok we are getting somewhere

I’m alr irritated and now she’s mentioning The Devil (Leopold II of B*lgium) and I’m just irate

“Leap” reminds me of Path’s fig tree metaphor

“It must be so hard to live that way, always trying to make yourself more palatable. The most vital parts of you, always taken with a degree of misunderstanding.”

It’s 8 AM.

“For twenty nine years I’ve been alive. For the last half an hour, I’ve lived.”

The homoromanticism of male friendships

“I realise it doesn’t matter that I haven’t made it yet, because I am going to make it now.” Sometimes Tom drops bangers I must admit

“Is he in there, alive all this time? I feel like I’m alive.” Oh

“I’m too fragile to be cross, and for that moment, I forgive every bad thing she had ever done to me. I want her to make me strong again. So strong that I could hate her.” Oh okay

“It was bad enough for white people, but when one of your own color could be so different it put you on a wonder. It was like seeing your sister turn into a ‘gator. A familiar strangeness.”

“Imperfections aren’t charming on me the way that they were on you.” I just reopened the book can we calm down

Ok it’s been a month (not gonna blame anyone but she knows who she is) I’m excited and scared

she needs to get away from these cougars…