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i‘m already crying

„and it will never disappear completely - as the years pass, you’ll find it in unexpected places at unexpected moments. grief is just love looking for a place to settle“

„we’re not meant to be in this lifetime…perhaps we’ll meet in another. - like, maybe we have different business with the same souls in each lifetime. and it doesn’t always work out how we want it to in every one of them“

„observing the world, rather than engaging with it, it meant i didn’t have to invest emotionally. if i never got close to anyone, they couldn’t leave me. or it wouldn’t hurt if they did. better to be alone by choice - that was one thing i always had control over. (…) the truth was - i was only living a shell of the life i knew was possible. and i regretted it“

„sometimes a female body serves another by effecting a theft upon itself.“

that was so brutal and bloody jesus christ, but i couldn’t stop reading so it’s a good sign

as someone who was on tumblr during 2013-2015 (and still is) and loves true crime….this book is for me

„I don’t say that I’ve come to see the corpse of Sylvia Plath’s genius and the hope of her spectacular death. She blew herself up so we could live (…) And we love her for dying of our sins, all the girls with the ugly feelings, the rage and the disgust and all the rest.“

„A single person is missing for you, and the whole world is empty. Also true: The whole world is empty, and a single person is missing for you.“

„Typical insomnia has an apologetic feel, like it doesn’t want to be here any more than you do. Like it knows you have a big day tomorrow but it can’t help itself. Grief insomnia has a mouth on it: Time does not heal all wounds. Time does not heal any wounds. Who promised you that? Get your money back. Time only pushes wounds aside.“

„People such as myself, who have mostly encountered anticipated trauma, “this is really going to hurt” trauma, are likely to find ourselves agape at the proximity of the ordinary to the extraordinary. The idea that misfortune arrives “out of the blue” means that the surrounding events become consequential in order to buttress the presence of the intruding event“.

„No one is the first person to whom bad things have happened. Functionality is not the problem. The problem is that our capacity to handle something shocking in the short term can make things indistinguishable in the long term. You become numb when you swallow too much sadness at once. The reason it feels like no boundaries have been crossed is because the concept of boundaries has been obliterated.“