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man i rly dont want to be the mf w mum issues who is obsessed w his mum issues

okay. bad ending.
seriously bad ending
unfulfilling,

Inadequate.

okay not cool. thats not great
they are making it about internalised homophobia and love, in the end
it is not just that. it isn't that.

what if it is a shitty book and i just needed an excuse?

i'll buy a paperback and keep it with me my whole life.

he is running away from himself. the thing some uquiz said i am doing. i've taken the uquiz, three times. honestly, each time.

Maybe that's why.

i always cried when my father said something true about myself. it felt bad to have a wound uncovered, like the pain of a bandaid ripped off. but rotten wet bandaids need to be ripped off.

do i also have too much inside me? i know i am touch starved since middle school.
do i have stuff inside i dont even know of? i know i forget things. big and important things.
maybe they are still there, inside?

Is that why?

is it normal that im crying so much? nothing really sad is happening at all, really. ari just doesnt know how to Be. why am i crying all the time. sorcery shit but i cant get enough. i want to understand it, why im crying. im not sad. im not angry. and im not empty.
what the fuck, who let saenz write this thing

cant really get percentages, but it is the bad winter after james and lily's wedding

cant really get percentages, but it is the bad winter after james and lily's wedding

how is it that when people speak exactly what's on their mind, the whole thing sound so dreamlike and absurd. absurd an in the genre.
it shouldn't, but maybe we are so used to great dialogue and witty banter and media and even in reallife, that actually normal unfiltered thoughts that come into our heads, when spoken aloud, sound like a pretentious art film

i dunno why but it is really giving L'etranger by albert camus. except i have tears in nearly every one page chapter
everything is so pathetic and depressing, sorta like the catcher in the rye, asshole-y unfiltered emotional mess.
i dunno why im relating nothing is supposed to make sense yet it does. it is so surreal but so real too. like if you were dreaming and remembering the waking world in your dream yaknow?

yea-No. Okay. I love these two. It is like one me is talking to another one of me when they have their conversations.

wtf i dont like the way it is written sometimes, and it shows that an adult is trying to become a depressed 15 year old,, so far, on a surface level, this has been mid.
yet
I have already cried.
interesting

as a guess.

okay i dunno how i will track progress on here since there r no pge numbers

hey im sorry but i REally didn't get what the fuck travis wanted from her. like to eat him,,,??

i thought i'd really really love this one. it has so far only made me apathetic and sleepy. mia-line i'd hate for you to have been wrong and right at the same time.