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ch58-2
when will people get that when regulus threatens you with something, HE FUCKING MEANS ITT

oh+ lost old note- the dumbledores' backstory!!!
albus & aberforth paralleling siri & reg!!!
OOO ALSO THE FIRST ALMOST FIGHT SCENE GO EFFIE & MONTY I LOVE REG '7 REM STANDING W/ THEM

regulus "i follow through on my threats" black and aberforth "fair enough" dumbledore //adore

ch58
remus telling effie & monty oh my heart
"People are rarely ever one thing," Lily points out//I LOVE THIS

moonwater friendship how i adore you
is this a safe space to say i lowk don't like marlene in this at all <3

prediction: dorcas is gonna kill dumbledore after marlene dies

Fiancé/Yeah, careful with that. He's really touchy about that//bartylus my chaotic goats

ch57
weirdly enough was thinking abt 'wait for it' & that's so lilyrem in this chap
i love them sm btw
my dorlily heart :((
remus lupin the miracle worker my goat

in this fic, remus has two things Central To His Character. one is he embodies "Be Gay, Do Crime" and two is he literally works miracles???//i love this

ch56-2
There is such bravery in simply trying. We find our strength inside us, and the people around us, and through love—and those boys are some of the strongest people I've ever known//effie my quote goat

cr is a story of hope
stupid of marlene to be mad lowk
die from old age//oof they ain't making it. i ship tho
im so upset about james' lasik??
rodolphus icon btw

ch56
i love siri so much. maybe its compartmentalising but how is he not in a panic spiral??
im going to puke, riddle count your fucking days
Sirius Black is many, many things, but a peasant before a king is never and will never be one//i aspire to be him
HE BIT HIM? i love him

marylily flirting i live
rem & lily oh im sad

ch55
mary macdonald my fucking queen how i adore you

where is my son?//oh effie

fruity dumbly reveal??

Rewind life on a reel and take him to the day he turned fifteen; that liminal in between where he and James loved each other at the same time, and actually got to be happy with that. That's where he wants to be. Not here. Not now. Not this.

For them, he's still breathing//oh

ch54
imsoscaredfuck
rodolphusxpanda? mayhaps
i think im gonna puke. not frank, not frank
james what the fuck i can't

this chapter was. ouch?

if sirius has a peeta bainwash arc...oh his memory issues too :(

ch53
remu my goat w/ the observations like yes minnie's protecting our boy!

what difference can one night make?//you'd be surprised. oh god they won't be able to get him out, will they?

I can't wait to tell him//oh so sybill's dying

barty my sweet boy oh no

WHY IS NOONE TELLING LILY ABOUT REM

rodolphus lowk an icon get this man his crazy girl

THE WORD THAT STARTS A WAR

always his big brother... oh fuck

ch52-3
Surely the saccharine flood of relief in his clementine-brittle bones is just the fluff-cloud security of the afterlife taking the shape of his brother peering down at him almost curiously//well damn.

he finds himself crossing the distance to do it again//oh aw

he has love for her, too//it's becoming painfully evident that regulus loves. he loves so so much. and he's hurt for it, so he shields it.

Me & you.

ch52-2
oh frank no. oh that's his mother

loving the siri bella parallels

siri my goat.

Sirius blinks—//NO. NO.

oh the gravity metaphor is a banger

He's never lived in a world that didn't have Sirius in it. He's always been Sirius' little brother. Always his little brother//their very beings are intertwined oh im sick

ch52
I'm gonna see my Alphard again//oh
let vanity & hodge rest you fuckers
marlene is such a complex character i wish WE GOT HER POV ugh
cissa queen pls don't die

the fact that the scene is told from james' pov i js know my baby boy is spiralling
Hedonistic in his desire to blaze as bright as the sun, bright enough to scorch, and have someone burn for him anyway.

ch51-3
He always thinks to look up now//evan rosier your impact

It's the fight for his life
And he wins
He fucking wins

We have so much to live for, even just ourselves, so we try to live

You can't have me, I'm not yours, Regulus thinks, and then he turns his face back towards the sun and smiles//oh the symbolism

what a chapter the whole revelation scene was pure perfection
if i cannot climb, i will grow & he did

ch51-2
oh siri's so excited about the wedding oh no
wait their convo gave me so much joy pls

The last time Regulus was lost in a crimson river, he tipped himself into it for James, and for Sirius. He chose to do it for them. A sacrifice.
This time, when Regulus is lost in yet another crimson river, he chooses to find his way out for himself. A rebirth.
//oh this means so much to me actually

ch51
Sirius makes his tea better//aw

tender hearts grow barbs to resist being bruised//oh quote

I'm right here, so lean//james how i adore you

impermanence only solidifies importance (!!)

it's been a long time since Remus has had a friend he could communicate with without ever saying a word//this means so much to me
I heard your name, and I was sixteen again//this line bro

ch50
I was a kid, too//:(
regulus what the fuck. i don't even care that you have a plan anymore, what. the fuck.
well siri you clearly know him better than me ! whoops

It's Remus, and Sirius can't be rational about Remus//oh they make each other irrational :((<3

this is so fucked up
oh.

i was a tad bit hasty eheheh. i love their relationship truly, don't have siblings so doubt i get it fully, but i do adore them

ch49
the bruise on his cheek gone so there's just an empty spot that James is practically vibrating to hit again//my goat

James isn't a good liar//OH ICON

BAGEL :(( OH THEY'RE SO CUTE

You never truly do feel as alive as when death is breathing down your neck.

JAMES YOU SMART COOKIE. WDYM HE FIGURED OUT MCG IS DOING TS ON PURPOSE? ATE.

FUCK YEAH SIRI YOU ATE THAT PUNCH YOUR BRO !! lmao they're everything

ch48
alecto-ladies ladies leave me alone type shi
rabastan reminding reg of evan no :(
Exactly a year ago, Regulus spent the day with Evan Rosier, climbing a tree to get to weapons, learning to trust//kill me

he's gonna make siri regret it by chosing for siri to live & him to not oh my GODD
but it turns out that Remus is more than a little irrational when it comes to Sirius' safety and well-being.

ch47-2
well fuck you for that reg. i get he has a strat but poor siri

It hits Sirius then, the reminder why the vessels of the sea are often called she, because no one bears the brunt of a storm like a woman

see i think reg's trying to get siri out. odd way to do it but it's reggie !

OKAY IS SAVAGE I LOVE HIM they need to get that this man FOLLOWS THROUGH
REG THOUGHT OF REMUS AWW
WWRLD? honestly same reg i get you

ch47
he isn't scared this time//resignation?

All he wanted to do was kiss Remus at least one more time. That's all he ever wants to do, really//shootme

Here they are, nothing more than the monsters they were made into, and finally, after all this time, there's a place that reflects it.//finally the flesh reflects the madness within

Mavis & Velvet your impact. (plot foils for jeggy?)

ch46(4)
so do i//:(
oh the confession. oh my heart.

They were a tragedy in the making the moment Regulus laid eyes on him the first time and blushed when he smiled, when Regulus threw a snowball at him on his fifteenth birthday, before the last arena and after it, standing in a kitchen and daring to try, and here, now, breaking in each other's arms with a distance shoved between them that neither of them wanted.

ch46(3)
Can't you see? Sirius murmurs, I'd die for them, but I'd live for you./ sobbing
Somehow, inexplicably, it's everything//oh i actually cried

James lasted ten years dealing with Regulus hating him, and being unkind, and ignoring him.
Regulus didn't even last five days./oh my sweet boy

He can't be pushed to the point of breaking down and resurface among the ruins without rage for what got him there.

ch46(2)
"Even if we had to have a wedding here, I would have, and we could have had a real one at home," Regulus continues, still just pushing. Always pushing, pushing, pushing. Picking at it—at them—like a fucking scab, struck by the habitual need to draw blood again.

"Come back," Remus whispers, like it's a sin, and Sirius' breath hitches//oh my sweet boys

ch 46
When they're scared, they go right to each other//their friendship is everything im so sad

Regulus can't really explain the peace that Remus brings him, just by being present. Perhaps it's just that it's Remus. Perhaps that's just who Remus is, some sort of magic that exists in him wherever he goes, so effortlessly comforting to all those near him and completely oblivious to this fact.

dorlily friendship yum

ch 45
reggie bagels!!
No, I've just lost my appetite. Fucking hate bagels//JAMES NO

James' love has grown thorns, and Regulus is happy to bleed// :( it's always blood with them

NARCISSA 'IF IT WEREN'T FOR THE BABY' BLACK
bella flirting w/ rita !
MY MOON??? Sirius I adore you with my whole heart
REGULUS 'IF IT WASN'T FOR THE WEDDING' BLACK??
ALPHARDxELI???? HELLO WHAT THE FUCK

called severus being the informant lfg

ch 44(2)
The only person who has him, truly, is Remus//no one's ever had me, not like you

Sirius and Remus, who just so happen to be folding laundry together in the main room, talking and laughing like a scene out of a domestic homemade film//my boys :(

ch 44
At least he won't be blindsided//oh siri...

"James?" Regulus calls, his voice cracking.
"Get out,"
"James"
"Well? Don't you recognize a parting gift when you see one?"
Regulus' eyes sink shut, and James leaves him there like that, shutting the door on his pained expression. Yeah, parting gifts aren't quite the gifts they're meant to be, are they?"//James you did not just. oh my god. oh that hurt me

ch 43 (2)
I love you more than the tides love the moon//my healthy sweet babies oh my god wolfstar otp
I'm as temperamental as the ocean, and just the same, I'm at your mercy. Give me a ship, and I will wreck it at your command//sirius you poetic bastard

It's always you, in any world, in any lifetime//IN ALL TIMELINES, ALL POSSIBILITIES, ONLY YOU.

ch 43
sirius my sweet boy oh my god
Of course he wants to respect Remus' need for space, but he also wants to spend as much time with him that he can while he still has the chance// :(

not related to this chapter but i keep thinking of 'all of a sudden, sirius is sixteen again'

The last time Sirius asked James that, he was sixteen and heading for the arena.//cried through this convo fucking hell