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“Grief…never gets easier. It keeps evolving and all you can do is adapt to it because it’s always going to be there.”

“ Somehow, like magnets, we found each other, forced to connect by an odd electrical pull, and now that we’ve connected, it feels hard to look away”

“I hold her, wishing I could take all her pain away. I hold her like my life depends on it. I’ll hold her until morning if I have to. I’ll keep holding her until I can’t any longer because how the fuck am I supposed to let go?”

“You can’t miss someone you don’t know,” I angrily snap. 
“Then let me know you,” he counters determinedly. “I want to know you.”

Through all their facetimes he literally was able to remember Anya's food schedule and had it saved on his phone!

Anya wanting to go to in-patient IM SO PROUD

Her calling Nico out of all people to check on Matteo while she's gone and he says "I'll take care of you" "you mean him?" "you heard me"

NICO SPENTS THE 60 DAYS PROTECTING HER WITHOUT HER KNOWING

HE LITERALLY KILLED THE JANITOR WHO LOOKED AT HER TOO LONG

“Nothing your cousins do to me could ever make me regret offering a dance to your daughter. Not torture, not fist-fighting a polar bear…not anything. And if you think I’m wrong, then you clearly didn’t see the way Anya was smiling while we danced. Nothing could make me want to erase that moment from my memory”

“I love you, Simone. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I’m never going to stop. Wherever you go, whatever you do, you have my heart in your hands.”

“She betrayed me. That’s why I’m so angry. I was willing to accept that Simone left me. I could forgive her for that. All the pain it caused me could be washed away by having her back again.
But this . . . nothing can give me those nine years back with my son.”

“I never stopped loving you, I never could.”

“Do you know what I did to try to forget you? I abandoned my family. I joined the military. I flew halfway across the world and fought in a hellscape. I killed a hundred and sixty-two men, just to numb the pain of missing you. And none of it worked, not for a second. I never stopped hurting. I never stopped wondering how you could leave me, when I couldn’t let go of you even for a second.”

“So I guess the question I really want to know the answer to is, Why didn’t she love me anyway? Why didn’t she love me as much as I loved her?
I thought she did. I looked into her eyes and I thought I saw my own feelings reflected back at me. I thought I could see inside of her, and I knew exactly what she felt.
I’ve never been so wrong.”

“I couldn’t get away from her. There was nowhere I could hide. I hated Chicago, my work, even my family, though it wasn’t their fault. I hated all the things that made me unworthy. I didn’t want to be myself anymore the man who loved her and wasn’t loved in return. So I joined the military.I flew across the world to the godforsaken desert, just to find a place where I wouldn’t have to see her face.”

“They were just men.
Dante is “the man.” The one who first formed my conception of what a man should be. The one who first made me fall in love. Who took my virginity. And who gave me a son.
The others were barely acquaintances by comparison.”

“I threw myself into the work, because that’s what I do. I steer this family. I execute the plans. I make sure everything goes off perfectly—no mistakes, no failures. I keep everyone safe, happy, and successful.
And when it’s done, I feel exactly the same as I did before . . . empty.”

“All the years before we knew each other, we were two asteroids in space, on two separate paths with a single trajectory. We were always destined to collide.”

“because my family is important to me, too. They’re a part of me, as much as my height or the color of my eyes.”

“Seb gets up again, wincing.
He’s skinny, smaller than me, with big brown eyes that break my heart. I want to go easy on him. But how would that help him? It wouldn’t. Nobody else is ever gonna go easy.”

“I couldn’t go to New York. Not full-time. I said it to Simone in the heat of the moment, but I can’t leave my siblings here alone. Aida’s getting prettier by the day, and more troublesome. Seb needs to practice with me, so he can make the high school team. Nero needs me to keep him out of jail, or from getting himself killed. He thinks he’s invincible. Or he doesn’t care that he’s not.”

“I’m the one who taught Seb to play. I’m the one who took him to the courts every day after our mother died, when he was so low that I didn’t see him smile for a year. It was hardest on him and Aida—or at least, that’s what I thought at the time.”

“I want Camille like I’ve never wanted anything in my life. I want her to love me. She’s the only one who knows me, so she’s the only one who can. And I want to love her. I’m fucking awful at it—I’ve never had any practice. But I want to take all that passion and jealousy and obsession inside of me, and I want to give it all to her. I want to give her the best of me, whatever that might be. I only hope it’s enough.”

“I don’t deserve it. I’m not kind. I’m not understanding.
But . . . I want to deserve it. I want to be a safe haven for her. Even if I don’t exactly know how to do that.”

“I don’t think people can change. And I don’t know how to be any other way.
And yet . . .
For once in my life, I wish I were different.”

“I kind of liked her. And I don’t like anybody. I barely like my own family. In fact, right now, I’m only 50/50 on Aida.”

“Love is the one thing you can’t steal. You can’t create it, either. It either exists or it doesn’t. And if it exists, you can’t take it by force.”

“I loved you before I knew what to do with it Before anything was easy. Before either of us knew what this would look like. You changed my life in all the best ways. In the real way the way that matters. You made every place feel more like home You made the future feel like something I wanted instead of something I was just working toward, and every version of my life that makes sense every one I want has you in it”

“The part where love stops being a secret or a fear or a question and starts becoming a life.
That used to feel impossible too.
And now I’m standing in the middle of it.”

“And then he does something I don’t expect. He opens his arms. Harlow hesitates for half a second, then she steps into him. Kai’s arms close around her like a shield. Like a vow. Like a boy who once watched his younger sister disappear and refuses to ever watch it happen again.”

“You’re not too much, You’re exactly enough. And you’re mine to be gentle with, not to fix”