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“people like you—the wilful sunbeams of life” 51

“his nature had developed like a flower, had borne blossoms of scarlet flame. out of its secret hiding-place had crept his Soul, and Desire had come to meet it on the way.” 53

“i want the dead lovers of the world to hear our laughter, and grow sad. i want a breath of our passion to stir their dust into consciousness, to wake their ashes into pain.” 54

“ah! this morning! you have lived since then!” 30

“behind every exquisite thing that existed, there was something tragic.” 37

“to get back one’s youth, one has merely to repeat one’s follies.” 42

“all i want now is to look at life. you may come and look at it with me, if you care to.” 44

“you will always be loved, and you will always be in love with love.” 49

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“live! live the wonderful life that is in you! let nothing be lost upon you. Be always searching for new sensations. be afraid of nothing.... with your personality there is nothing you could not do. the world belongs to you for a season.... i thought how tragic it would be if you were wasted. For there is such a little time that your youth will last - such a little time.” 25

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“because to influence a person is to give him one's own soul..the aim of life is self-development.” 20

“music had troubled him many times… it was not a new world, but rather another chaos, that it created in us. words! mere words!” 22

“nothing can cure the soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure the senses but the soul.” 23

“youth is the one thing worth having.” 24

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“brace yourself” 261

“i exist to exist alongside of you” <333

“you are so stunning it hurts, buxbaum”

“would i ever get tired of looking at her. her face was the only thing my eyes ever wanted to see.”

also chapter 41 in the park like what!

the siren scene!!! + o children by nick cave and the bad seeds

glad to be back!

when liz is walking into the masquerade party and she says that she could close her eyes and be so many places when she hears wes’ laugh, calling it a cohesive thread and a recurring melody that showed up in so many scenes of her life and then finally, comparing it to “mia and sebastian’s theme” in la la land. are you kidding me???

“her eyes became my whole world”

“and i remember that at that moment everything stood still. the sun didn't move and the earth didn't move, the sky stared down, waiting, and i put my hand on my heart to make it start beating again.” 194

“she watched me for a moment, then she went away again. i watched the sky. it was as though it had something to say to me. i was in some strange place, alone. everything was still.” 196

“he smiles, and stands… looking me dead in the eye. something travels from him to me, it is love and courage. yes. yes. we are going to make it, somehow. somehow. i stand, and smile... he turns into the inferno. i walk toward the sahara.” 184

“people always know the outside better than they know the inside.” 184

“yet, when he grinned, i saw, all over again, my lover, as though for the first time.” 193

“every day, when he sees my face, he knows, again, that i love him—and God knows i do, more and more, deeper and deeper, with every hour… he is not alone; we are not alone. “ 162

“the mind is like an object that picks up dust. the object doesn't know, any more then the mind does, why what clings to it clings. but once whatever it is lights on you, it doesn't go away” 171

“i had crossed my river. now, we were one.” 144

“despair can make one monstrous, but it can also make one noble” 152

“he is young, very, very young, but also very old; but not old in the way that she had expected him to be. she had expected the age of corruption. she is confronting the age of sorrow. she is confronting torment.” 154

“when two people love each other… everything that happens between them has something of a sacramental air… i know of no greater torment, no more resounding void—when your lover has gone! but tonight, with our vows so mysteriously menaced, and with both of us, though from different angles, placed before this fact, we were more profoundly together than we had ever been before.” 143

reading for school

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re read for the new season!

reading for school

chapter 1 -> chapter 12!

HE CALLED HER A SUMMER SIREN, “SHE GLOWED.” he’s smiling from head to toe, stop. he knew the colour coding of her book annotations?!?! “silly little love lover.” i love charlie bushnell! “regarding lizzy, i had all the intentions in the world.” he’s suchhh a tool and they’re sooo awkward i can’t.

in class

"i don't want to sound foolish. but, just remember, love brought you here. if you trusted love this far, don't panic now." 112

“one of the most terrible, most mysterious things about a life is that a warning can be heeded only in retrospect: too late.” 135

"i have been in america a long time, i hope i do not die here." 139

"i know i can't help you very much right now-God knows what i wouldn't give if i could. but i know about suffering; if that helps. i know that it ends. i ain't going to tell you no lies, like it always ends for the better. sometimes it ends for the worse. you can suffer so bad that you can be driven to a place where you can't ever suffer again: and that's worse." 112

“yet longs to be free to confront his life; is terrified at the same time of what that life may bring, is terrified of freedom; and is struggling in a trap. and fonny, who is younger, struggles now to be older, in order to help his friend toward his deliverance. didn't my Lord deliver daniel? and why not every man? the song is old, the question unanswered.” 106

“in complete silence, without moving a muscle, we are laughing with each other… we are together somewhere where no one can reach us, touch us, joined. we are happy… for daniel… sensing that something wonderful has happened to us, which means that wonderful things happen, and that maybe something wonderful will happen to him. It's wonderful, anyway, to be able to help a person to have that feeling.” 105

“neither love nor terror makes one blind: indifference makes one blind. and i could not be indifferent to daniel because i realized, from fonny's face, how marvelous it was for him to have scooped up, miraculously, from the swamp waters of his past, a friend.” 99

“i got two things in my life, man—i got my wood and stone and i got tish. if i lose them, i’m lost. i know that.” 101