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Actually, it was only part of myself I wanted to kill: the part that wanted to kill herself, that dragged me into the suicide debate and made every window, kitchen implement, and subway station a rehearsal for tragedy.

I was supposed to be having the time of my life.

“I think the white people who have been here for two hundred years are the ones pulling down the country. They don't know how to work
—they've had it too easy."

“I want to leave, transfer, warp myself to another galaxy. I want to confess everything, hand over the guilt and mistake and anger to someone else. There is a beast in my gut, I can hear it scraping away at the inside of my ribs.”

“I was abducted by aliens. They have created a fake Earth and fake high school to study me and my reactions. This certainly explains cafeteria food. Not the other stuff, though. The aliens have a sick sense of humor.”

“I am getting better at smiling when people expect it”

Okay I restarted this for the third time and I swear I’m going to finish it this time lol