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“Yeah, him. Friday night.

‘What am I supposed to do?’ I started getting loud.

I’ll never tell her this, but sometimes not having nothing to do on a Friday night is cool because Mama joins me at the TV with a bowl of ice cream and jokes on the shows like ‘No way could a family of seven keep a house that clean,’ and ‘Too sassy. They’d get a slap for that ‘round here, huh?’” (p. 108)

of course the app breaks right after i update it very cool
owned by a trillionare corporation and it still runs like shit 👍

back on the #grindset

resident evil movie was so peak. i kneel to you zach cregger

beat leon’s story in re2. will play claire’s story later but i should SLEEP!!

i should finish re2 before continuing to read zero fade. i cant have my brain focused on so many things at once

this is good so far, i’m having fun with it

the "thunder" moment is so powerful. there's so much to think about here, and i'm glad that this memoir exists even though i have my thoughts on the author and her relationship with casey. it's human.

you get bits and pieces from all over and you have to stitch together the meaning of it all. even if it's foggy, that's fine. nothing is black and white, sometimes it just is what it is.

30 pages left. Could’ve finished this by now but my brain wanted to do some other bullshit

the use of "❤️" as a paragraph break really pisses me off when she goes on about how she kept going back to the same man who treated her like shit, the same man who treats her like a side chick at every moment.

I feel bad for Isaiah. There's so much focus on Casey that I just wonder how much she neglected Isaiah's feelings. It feels like a cycle of abuse where she's rehashing her parents behavior, impacting him too

Showing how a trauma can fuck you up so bad that it will manifest itself in your actions towards others and mental health in your adult life.

I now understand why her and Casey got back together, they're BOTH abusive and unwell. Casey neglecting Mailhot as a human being and Mailhot physically assaulting him. I know she's mentally ill but WHY did she think having a kid with him was a good idea? They both suck

also Casey is awful for fully taking advantage of a mentally ill woman just to please himself. He pretended to only care for her even though he was trying to make moves on his friends at the same time. IMO he didn't really care for her. He knew she was just in the mental hospital but still played along with her demands just so he could fuck. Inviting her and her son over AND his other ex for dinner is insane

Her and Casey's relationship is so dysfunctional and toxic but the fact that they came back to each other and HAD A KID knowing that this was fucked and wouldn't work out is so maddening but interesting.

I like how disjointed the writing is. It shows how fucked up her mental state was and how she could never think clearly on what was best. IMO she focused on men more than she focused on her son. Rough but honest

quotes:
I think self-esteem is a white invention to further separate one person from another. It asks people to assess their values and implies people have worth. It sounds like identity capitalism

The strange thing about poverty is that maintaining a level of desperation and lack of integrity keeps the checks rolling in

You seemed engaged by my dysfunction because you were a writer and not because I experienced it

i love yotsuba but i should get back to reading the physical books i keep hoarding

back at it again

at the point where i’d be okay with dropping it. something incredibly gruesome happens but i audibly laughed at how goofy the setup was. bad shit keeps happening to nami and it’s getting ridiculous

not sure how i feel about the writing style. i like it but it’s missing something. still like the book tho so far

adding to that, i do like the idea of this book more than it's execution for now. but i'll see how i feel about it later on

Part I done. i'm enjoying this quite a bit! it's refreshing to see a young dystopian MC who is actually a product of their environment. Nami's not a perfect character for you to self-insert to, but you understand everything he does. The world itself is also really interesting as I'm finding out more about it with Nami. The dialogue is weird sometimes but I dunno if that's a translation issue or if it's just like that

What? Huh? You’re just letting him leave??? Why now?

i forgot how ass the website truly is lmao. bought by amazon but the page layouts are still buggy and ugly

this isn't a book i should speed thru in a day. i'll take my time with it