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“Absolutely not. I have no interest in flirting with you. I am here about the sex!”
He raised a brow. “Cutting right to it, are we? All right. I like a man who asks for what he wants. I’m off in an hour. Can you keep it together until then?”
I growled.

«Who shoots first?’ the boy asked.» Those six words broke my heart. . .

«. . . and he had lain in unbearable agony screaming her name day after day. But she didn’t come. And hour by hour, day by day, little by little he began to understand, that he would never, ever see her again. So he carried on screaming her name. Just to hear it. And it suddenly dawned on Pelle that it wasn’t until tonight, when the boy had put his hand on his shoulder, that the pain disappeared completely.»

«. . . and robbed his defenceless mother blind. He didn’t care about anything, least of all himself, but he needed money to keep the pain at bay.»

«I knew I loved her–fiercely and with every part of my heart, even the broken parts, even the parts that felt unworthy and without value. And maybe those parts most of all.»

«He caressed my face, light as nothing, sending a strange pleasure, part anticipation, part frustration, rippling over my skin. I felt like a lake, and his hands were the moon.»

«In the past, the universe is a glitterball I hold in the palm of my hand. I am the axis of the world. In the past, I am soaring, and falling, and breaking, and lost.»

«I have been telling people. I have stopped lying or being very silent. I have been telling everyone the truth. I have been letting them help me. They all want to help me and so I am letting them.»

«I used to wander. I used to go for long walks all around the neighborhood, even late at night. I used to lie on the floor, spread out like a starfish, & gaze at the ceiling of my huge empty home & wonder why I had been chosen for the life I was living. Why I was chosen to be so alone.»

«When I was a baby she held me and kept me alive. This I tell myself at times to stop me from hitting her squarely in the jaw.»

«People who loved you, people who chose you, who made you their family and made you belong, they’re the ones you have to hold onto with everything you have.»

«A harsh sob breaks the still air. And then I let go. Willa’s big blue eyes, Willa’s dimple-cheeked smile. Tiffin’s shaggy blond mane, Tiffin’s cheeky grin. Kit’s yells of excitement, Kit’s glow of pride. Maya’s face, Maya’s kisses, Maya’s love. Maya, Maya, Maya . .» oh. My. God. Let. Me. Die

«The thing I have feared and railed against these past few weeks—the total loss of control over my mind—has set in, and I have no way to fight it anymore. I close my eyes and feel the coil of madness climb up my spine and creep into my brain. I watch it explode like the sun. So this is it, this is what it feels like after a long hard struggle—to lose the battle and finally go crazy»