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Oh I would be tweaking tf out. BUT GIRL once you get it together SUE THAT MF AND THE SCHOOL. Misconduct on so many levels holyyyyy shitttt

516 highlights and we’re only halfway through. I need c10 to come out bc I don’t think I can touch this book again. It’s so freaking heavy

Went to a hockey game so now I gotta live vicariously through

Break time, god this shits heavy 😔

APRIL FIFTH TO APRIL TWENTY FOURTH KMSSSSSS

It truly pisses me off that they actually have no idea about Lizzie’s disorder, because her lows (that we’ve seen) have ALL been initiated by Mark and his abuse. So Lizzie thinks, it’s just down: the scary ladies back, the nightmares, etc. when in reality she’s down because mark is back to ruining her life. I HATE IT HERE

SHE’S JUST A GIRL WHO WANTS HER DAD TO BE PROUD OF HER MIKEEEEE HELL IS NOT A BAD ENOUGH PLACE FOR YOU

Lizzie is ready to end it all and hoping she doesn’t wake up. Gibsie was stuck in his childhood home with Mark all day on his birthday. SOMEBODY GET ME A GUN

Audiobook - currently on ch 4

Got one more week till spring break. I’m bout to fix up my back yard and lock tf in on books ✨✨

I need help y’all, it did draw me in with her being in the capital, but does the pace pick up? Bc I reallllyyyy wanna keep reading this but I’m like having to force myself 😫

I love practically sharing a birthday with my queen Lizzie!!! I was born 2 days and 10 years after her 🥹

Lizzie: June 9, 1988
Audrey: June 11, 1998

Idk if I already said this but the tiktoker who sad Brain is a parallel for Mark was a gd genius

The hospitals and the doctors and her father literally BRAINWASHED Lizzie. I’m freaking sick all over again.

The amount of highlights will once again be crazyyyy. There’s so much to try to remember for upcoming books.

Side note: the fact that Claire has the utmost understanding and sympathy for Gerard’s dad and sister passing (as she should), but essentially expects Lizzie to be over her sisters passing and shows no empathy towards that situation…nah

And ANOTHER thing!! How do you come out of this book and not think Hugh and Liz are the cutest damn thing? Or think that Hugh’s a bad brother?

Side note: I love finally getting to see Gibsie/Liz🥺

Deadass if I could harm Mike I would. He did just as much damage to her as Mark. He’s 1000% mentally abusive with her.

I friggin love being able to freely highlight, this is why I now prefer ebooks

Lizzie and Joey are truly the main characters of this whole series

Aw Pete going dark after Joe’s death was already so sad, but this makes it so much sadder. Hugh is so enamored by him and just wants to make him proud 🥺

And y’all wonder why Lizzie is prone to outbursts and quick to anger? They shut down every emotion she ever had that wasn’t “pretending to be fine and normal.” Her dad is the biggest pos and such an instigator. If they actually gave her support and listened to her, she would have turned out so different. All that shit starts IN the home.

Rereading this reminds me how little respect I have for Lizzie haters. Like the ones who hate hate her. How tf do you read this whole book and come out of it hating her still?? She’s 5 and the amount of shit she goes through and deals with would cripple anyone. & her ONLY support is her mother. Not even her doctors give af about her

If u fit in that category, I gotta be frank, we should t be Goodreads friends sns

OH & Mike should have kept his ass back in Tipperary or however u spell it and kept Caoihme. Lizzie & Catherine should’ve gone to Ballylaggin alone. I don’t blame Caoihme, her outbursts and drama are normal for a child/soon to be teen.

MICHAEL THO? It’s on sight mf. He helped feed the divide between Caoihme and Lizzie. And he never even ATTEMPTED to understand or accept or love Lizzie. I hope he has a str*ke

Re read time & one thing is so clear as day. Lizzie is not Catherine & Mike’s bio daughter. Nell is her mother, she tried to harm her (likely drown her, hence Catherine freaking out abt Nell showing up and taking her to a river). And either bipolar disorder or a different disorder passed to Nell, skipped Mike, and maybe is out of his side of the family. But is still being passed down Nell/Lizzie’s

I am sick and I want to kms

WTF has Hugh figured out

This makes me so uncomfortable because Gibsie does not know how to actually say no to someone he loves and truly (like the rest of em) does not know how to consent. But Claire doesn’t know she’s doing anything wrong bc she doesn’t know his trauma and they’re just kids 😫😖

While I am thrilled for them I wanted Sean’s birthday 😫

God. Rereading this after reading R10 reinforces how much brainwashing Mark did on Lizzie. Like he completely fuckdd up her head and he knew exactly how to do it bc he DID IT FOR YEARS. I’m sick. And poor freaking Gibsie, caught in it because he doesn’t want anyone to know his past

I feel for Claire so much, I do. I’ve been in that situation so many times and it’s so hard. But after hearing Lizzie’s dad up and left them WHILE her mother is still clearly sick…maybe we should’ve paused there and not brought up potential self harm just yet