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take a shot every time istvhan reminds himself that clara’s a nun

slowly chugging thru this.. rlly good but every time i have to read abt the condition of women in this world i feel miserable

love the concept and i think the pay off will (probably) be worth but was getting frustrated with fhings constantly going wrong (which is the point. maybe) had to take a break 3 this started my reading slump unfortunately but i want to finish at least this first book

slowly getting thru her …… so beautifully written but to the point i get overwhelmed reading sometimes i cannot be reading this on transit ..

updated by page number and was like no way i am only 54% done ….. realized this listing is different page numbers oopsies anyways nearly there!!! i almost cried on the train at a 💔 certain 💔 scene 💔

trying to tie up some books i have yet to finish, and i am so close with this one but wow does it feel like i’m barely trudging through 😭 the plot IS good but tbh i do not care about these characters broooo i’m sorry carys……. i do want to see how this series finally ends though.. so…. whatevs …

“He took a fruit knife to himself when he was twenty and made a blood oath: He vowed to cut through the other self that had been handed to him by other people. It wasn’t the real him.”

“I am a woman who loves women. The tears I cry, they spring from a river and drain across my face like yolk…My time was gradually consumed by tears. The whole world loves me, but what does it matter since I hate myself?”

HOLY SHIT? 😭 also the chapter full of long detailed descriptions of material objects was tough to get through loved the paragraph on perfume tho

judd !!!!!!!!! 😭🫶

“There is no such thing as a good influence… All influence is immoral… Because to influence a person is to give him one’s soul.”
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me reading every bad influence after bad influence page after page: 🫨

the reread begins …………. justice imy

“…It was funny, and hopeful, and romantic, and human. This, however, was thoroughly inhuman. It was abstract and ugly, but so, so beautiful. She was mesmerized instantly—she could read its heart and hoped, somehow, it would read her own and find her beautiful, too.”

“What a long way, I thought, I’ve come — to be destroyed!”
ok real

“Once gripped, it feels acutely, and its sensations in love are particularly profound. Given time, it can know and impart ecstasy; given time, it can sink to the heart of Hell.”

fox my beloved

i need this physically…….

“Everywhere you go is a grave, Sadie. Everywhere you step, someone⸺something⸺has passed from this life and into the next. Into dirt and dust and whatever blooms sprout up from the decay…”
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“The ocean gives no beautiful death.”