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“I am depressed because I am indulging in a sense of loss instead of wonder”

Oh.

Chapter 13 oh no no no no reading Hagar’s pov with “Not a Lot, Just Forever” by Adrianne Lenker playing in the background is actually form of torture

I need more Corinthians and Lena content. Fuckass Milkman.

“Poet Laureate” and “Bryn Mawr” all mentioned in just two pages. Chapter 9 was meant for me

Razumikhin/Raskolnikov for the win

Taking advantage of having no extra reading for AP Lit this week and finally finishing this book. Lowk wanna drag it out a little longer bc I love this book and don’t want it to end

“I’m the Sunday man”

CHILLS chapter 6 made me so so sad. Anyone who hates Guitar after this lacks human sympathy I fear xx

The last line of chapter 5 lowk gave me chills. I love this so far. Hate Milkman, love Guitar and Pilate.
Women putting a mirror on Pilate’s door is going to send me back into my existential crisis about mirrors

The ending has me spiraling back into my sophomore year existential crisis

I can’t believe I’m reading this play again.

And now for my final act, I shall attempt to finish this book in 2 hours, just in time to get ready for school!! (It’s currently 3:10 am)

I hate my wife final boss

I don’t care I don’t care I don’t care oh my god I don’t care

Inez was absolutely my favorite character and her story made me sad and her melodramatic quotes were definitely something. But she also made me laugh in like a sardonic way bc ofc her gf killed the both of them with a gas stove after she psychologically manipulated her like ok #wlw

Yk I have to say, yelling “touch me! Touch me!” In front of my entire English class wasn’t on my agenda this year, but here we are

“I can’t get on without making people suffer… a live coal in others’ hearts. When I’m alone I flicker out. For six months I flamed away in her heart, till there was nothing but a cinder”

Inez babe you can’t be making me cry in English class

His sister came to say goodbye to him and mentioned Razumikhin ONCE out of a long paragraph, and yet all Raskolnikov said in response was that Razumikhin was “capable of intense love.” I wonder how he became aware of that…

“They will reproach you for cumbering the place, for being so long over dying… your name will vanish from the face of the earth—as though you had never existed… my life has been thrown away… let me out, kind people, to live in the world again”

Wait, why are there tears in my eyes? I swear I had resolved to hate this guy…

A funeral march would be less depressing than this.