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-“I was looking for solitude, and perhaps the absolute. But I envied the world.”
-“…you can enjoy a fatuous cheerfulness despite the boredom, a funereal fervour”
-“The crows flew low over the steep grassy slopes, hideous, boastful, cruel. I had compared them to our adolescence as they searched for a place in the earth round the school to sink their claws into.”

-“These days, projecting blame is almost an art form.”

To hear and to see
Even an obvious lie
Again
And again and again
May be to say it,
Almost by reflex
Then to defend it
Because we’ve said it
And at last to embrace it
Because we’ve defended it
And because we cannot admit
That we’ve embraced and defended
An obvious lie.

I felt physical joy like a hot ball in my chest when they got out 😭

😠😵‍💫😵‍💫😠😠😠😠🤮🤮🤮🤮

“Forever uniting, growing, dissolving— forever Changing. The universe is God’s self-portrait.”

-“Stumbling across the truth isn’t the same as making things up.”
-“Earthquake today….the ground itself gave a low, grating rumble like buried thunder.”

-“you have mistaken your cowardice for common sense and have found comfort in that, deceiving yourselves”

There should have been a convenient frying pan lying around for Lisa to hit him over the head with mid-speech 🙄

NEED to smoke with this guy…

-“the direct, the inevitable, and the legitimate result of consciousness is to make all action impossible”
-“I should have oozed tears like a sponge.”
-“my jokes are in very bad taste, they are lame and a bit confused, and show a lack of self-confidence too. That is because I have no self respect.” Truly a voice of the people…

😣😣😣😣😣😣😣😣

- well that was stressful!!
- “To have those feelings disturbed was painful; but she knew all the same that they were the best part of her inner self and that that part of her was being rapidly smothered by the life she was leading.”

-really enjoyed Mikhailov couldn’t believe what he said about Vronsky’s painting lmaoo
-ch 17-20 with Nikolai 😶
-“it was so necessary for him in his humiliation to possess at least this imaginary height from which he, despised of all, could despise others, that he clung to his sham salvation, as though it were true salvation.”

If Kitty dies Leo dies by my sword

-“these joys were so small that they were quite imperceptible, like grains of gold in sand; but there were also good moments when she saw nothing but joy, nothing but gold.”

Really like all these characters— everyone’s in their own unique mental trenches, and so tangible. Levin is so off-putting and you can just feel he’s been a few steps away from a serious spiritual catastrophe since his first sentence, it’s very compelling I want to mow with him for real.

- really enjoyed Laska the dog’s pov 😄
- “love was not a joke or a pastime, but something more ecstatic and important”
-“Kitty felt that in her, in her way of life, she could find the pattern she herself was so painfully seeking; interest in life, dignity of life…”

-“All his life he had lived and worked in official spheres, dealing with the reflection of life. And every time he had come up against life itself, he had kept aloof from it. Now he experienced a sensation such as a man might experience who, having calmly crossed a bridge over a chasm, suddenly discovers that the bridge has been demolished and that there is a yawning abyss in its place.“

- ok i get it I’m in love with her too!
-“to live with him now will be torture to me, just because I love my past love for him”
-“you’re both in the wrong. You more outwardly and he more inwardly”
-p. 111-112

-“you logic-chopping, chalky-faced saint of an atheist”
-“can you imagine language, once clear-cut and exact, softening and guttering, losing shape and import, becoming mere lumps of sound again?”
- 😦

Really fucked up!

🫥

White Heathcliff better be ready to bring it for these monologues… 🫢

WHO is doing despair like them? Who is lamenting their wretched existence like them?

-poor creature 🥺
-“the never-dying worm”
-“The wounded deer dragging its fainting limbs to some untrodden brake, there to gaze upon the arrow which had pierced it, and to die— was but a type of me.”

-“thus strangely are our souls constructed, and by such slight ligaments are we bound to prosperity or ruin”
-“to exchange chimeras of boundless grandeur for realities of little worth”
-“I felt as if my soul were grappling with a palpable enemy; one by one the various keys were touched which formed the mechanism of my being: chord after chord was sounded, and soon my mind was filled with one thought”