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"I hunger to touch something, other than cloth or wood. I hunger to commit the act of touch."

"Tengo miedo de creer que el amor
es tan sólo un poema inventado por mí"

"Y no digas que la quieres, / si tan solo la deseas, / que esa mujer pone un verso / en cada beso que deja."

"Al principio. / Era la era del paraíso.
Jugaban por los valles, / trepaban por los riscos,
y todo era posible, / y todo permitido.
Y Adán se convirtió en manzana / y Eva se convirtió al catolicismo."

leyendo sobre la promulgación de Roe v. Wade después de que han intentado overturn it mil veces y el aumento de la ultraderecha a nivel mundial está quitando todos los derechos descritos en este libro por el cual las mujeres llevan años peleando así q me estoy volviendo loca xdios

"Tengo un poema aquí dentro
que me duele y no sale."

"Fui al metro decidida a matarme, pero al ir a sacar el billete, ligué, y en vez de tirarme al tren me tiré a la taquillera."
OK GLORIA

"And this neck—this neck that has leaned forward so she could pray over a chair, that has tilted back so she could see the heavens, that has turned to the side so she could hide from her demons, that has propelled her forward so she could kiss a girl."

"It's hard to love someone when loving then makes you feel ashamed of yourself."

"I wish so badly that I could find Jesus or God, or whatever— I just wish I could find him in the park or something, and sit down with him on the grass and ask him what I'm supposed to do. Or why any of this happened. I wish I could look into his face and say, 'Why do I have these feelings in my heart? Are they bad? Why does everyone says they're bad? And if they are bad, why did you make me like this?'"

"I wish so badly that I could find Jesus or God, or whatever— I just wish I could find him in the park or something, and sit down with him on the grass and ask him what I'm supposed to do. Or why any of this happened. I wish I could look into his face and say, 'Why do I have these feelings in my heart? Are they bad? Why does everyone says they're bad? And id they are bad, why did you make me like this?'"

""Gay," Hannah says, her voice at its normal volume now. "Gay."
The chapel stays silent. The statues do not reprimand her. She raises her eyes to the Crucifix that hangs above the altar and stares beseechingly at it.
"Gay," she says, her voice swelling in her throat. "Gay! I'm gay!"
The Jesus on the Crucifix stays motionless. His face stays anguished."

HOW CAN IT WORSEN???
the author of this book googled list of tragedies for a lesbian and decided to write about EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM
it just keep getting worse??!!!

it just keeps getting worse, how can that be possible 😭
it feels like I'm reading the same chapter over and over again and it just pain, angst, hurt and NO COMFORT
this book will be the one to put me in a reading slump

"LOOK ME IN THE EYE AND TELL ME, WITH ABSOLUTE CERTAINTY, THAT HOW I FEEL ISN'T WRONG, THAT IT'S NOT BAD, THAT IT'S NOT DISGUSTING AND PERVERTED AND FUCKED UP—"

genuinamente, es como leer Tan Poca Vida pero en lesbianas, una cosa mala tras otra, puras desgracias en este libro que empieza a cansar

"Somewhere, somehow, something must have gone wrong when she was born. Something got switched in the wiring. Something in her brain, or in her body, or in her blood. Everything she's learned about union with another person, about her body's purpose—none of that can transfer to a girl"

"She wonders about this suffering.
Was it designed by God, a lesson to turn her away from her sin?"

este libro hace que me duela la wata leerlo, es hurt no comfort mucho angst y nada de serotonina, diooossss

"He's Boy, she's Girl, and maybe her teachers have been right all along, and maybe the churches have been right all along, and maybe [redacted] has been the divinely anointed one for her all along, ever since the beginning of time."

"Eventually she starts to talk to God. Small phrases, monosyllabic words. Why does this hurt. Can you hear me. Can you make this go away. "

"Does she laugh at his jokes? Does he think about how pretty she is? Does he teach across the table for her hand? Does she let him take it?"

diosss, hasta a mi me duele 😭
Hannah eres la lesbiana más fuerte que existe

"Tears bleed out of her eyes again, water and salt collecting on her face just as they did on Christ's face when he wept in the garden, just as they did on Eve's face when she wept beyond the garden."

"They kiss each other beautifully but brokenly, each kiss imparting wishes and prayers and shame, their tears mixing on each other's mouths, and in a startling moment of clarity Hanna feels God there with her, pounding in her heart, flowing through her body and blood, but whether in jubilation or admonition, she doesn't know."
dioosss, ALEXA PLAY Oh GOD by Orla Gartland

"Do you think we're wrong?"
BASTA 😭

"Tell me, how are you feeling about God at this point? Are you scared that He's going to reject you? Maybe that He already has? Are you scared that we're messing with something that goes all the way back to original creation? Are you scared that this is the one catch, the one thing that throws everything we've ever learned about God and religion into doubt?"

"She wants to leave and she wants to stay. She wants to raise her hand to the heavens and command that everything stop, that time stills, that the rules and the laws retract their grip so nature can have her way."

"Please. Please can you make it stop hurting it hurts so badly. I don't want it. It hurts and I don't want it. I'm trying to make it go away. Please, just make it go away, just make it go away.
But there's an ancient voice deep inside of her that knows it will never go away, no matter what she does or how hard she prays."

lesbianas que son mejores amigas que estudian en colegio católico????
I'M IN