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62- When I started writing, I hated myself for being so uncertain, about images, clauses, ideas, even the pen or journal I used. Everything I wrote began with maybe, and perhaps and ended with I think or I believe… Even when I know something to be true as bone I fear the knowledge will dissolve…despite my writing it.

- FUCK OFFFFFFF so felt

Wtf just happened😭 I feel like I have whiplash

What I really wanted to say was that a monster is not such a terrible thing to be. From the Latin root Monstrum, a divine messenger of catastrophe, then adapted by the old French to mean an animal of myriad origins: centaur, griffin, satyr. To be a monster is to be a hybrid signal, a lighthouse: both shelter and warning at once.