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i’m phil 🥲 afraid of my own body and letting anybody into my life

she struggles with anything that involves a gathering of people, a voicing of feeling. it’s not that she doesn’t have feelings of her own, but as soon as they’re spoke aloud, they sound false, and she’s afraid of revealing something bad about herself.

there is nothing, i repeat, nothing i enjoy more than a multi pov story in which the characters' lives clash and intertwine and overlap and loop, especially within a few days. AND it's gay? yeah.

so harrowing :(

scared !!!! wish me luck. if ur a man there’s a good chance we are not speaking ever again after i am finished with this.

why not be honest? it is exhausting to haul secrets around all the time. secrets that nobody is asking me to keep. the way that people react to me is out of my control, i know this.

i am my own biggest obstacle. i have always been.

he takes the long way home, through the fields and over the ridge. the wind blows my hair, sending it shooting out in front of my face. through the tangle i can see the blue-black sky, and the stars. i am going to leave this place one day.

sunburn was getting a bit too real and raw ™️ needing a break !!!!!! :-)

i’d come back on my hands and knees

this is biblically accurate yearning for the ages

r u kidding me.

clocking into my shift at the wlw factory where i’m employee of the month

needing to see a visual representation of these girls in the form of a cheesy, campy, queer movie STAT

D: to be a girl is to only know suffering and to know it like the back of your hand

my mother’s version of adulthood was reconstructive. she built a very tiny box for me and called it a life. i knew i’d have to kill lawrence to make sense to her, to fit in this box, and i tried killing her every day for years to make my mother happy. IS THIS FUCKING PLAY ABOUT US.

y'alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll. omigod

perfectly captures the feeling of falling in love with a girl in high school and being enraptured by the idea of her brushing her teeth or chewing on watermelon gum more than the idea of her being completely naked

the basic self-estrangement of growing up …

UGHHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOO

nonononononono NOT THE GAY DOG MAN ON ALL FOURS

girl EEEEEEEEEK

swallowing a click in his throat

it was possible to graduate from passive to active, to take the thing that had once driven you nearly to madness as a neutral prize of no more than occasional academic interest (!!!!!!!)

reading this in the dead of winter was the best decision