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"...I felt understood. I uttered sentences that were heard and heard the words that were spoken."

"...It was like the time after we first met, only more intense and possibly–or so it seems to me now–with an undertone of quiet desperation, but that is not how we saw it. There was the feel of electrically charged skin, the way our sentences flowed together when we talked. There was something in the air between us, an intensity, a dense network of connections..."

"Now, I remembered those as the happiest days. Ever. I felt loved. [...] There was nothing unusual in this. It was no different from before the eighteenth of November, only stronger, and there was nothing we had to do. This was a time that did not run away with us."

"Maybe we are a weather system—condensation and evaporation: we are together, we look at one another, we touch one another, we condense, we come together, we make love, we fall asleep, we wake and revert to our strange bond, a quiet weather system..."

steely dan

"Mmmm, yeah, y'know what? I just can't do it."
"What?"
"It would be a crime to get rid of something so delicious."
"You can't be serious!"

the devil loves chocolate, noted

"He thought he'd heard that Candice was from the Bay Area originally (always notable for a queer), maybe Daly City, maybe had been kicked out by a homophobic Filipino family?"

"...the phone line physically connected them: from his hand, through the curly cord, to the plastic box, to the wall, to the ground outside, up those tall wooden posts, over the miles to Iowa, to South Johnson, up the side of the white shingled house and through Jane's apartment wall, down into Jane's hand and head. They were touching. He pressed the yellow receiver into his ear until it hurt."

so getting bitten by an eel turns you transgender... noting this

"Paul smarted at this unfairness of apartment hunting: you needed an apartment with a phone to get an apartment with a phone, like you needed a job to get a job, or money to get money. But worse–you needed a phone to get a job, so you actually needed an apartment to get a phone to get a job, so the apartment was first, but you needed a /job/ to get the apartment."

"He did not himself care to assimilate into the power structures of heteropatriarchal white Christian America, was bored and horrified by those who did."

interesting perspectives on denying monogamy from a male and female lens; "...male creatures had a biological imperative to spread their seed and so could not actually be monogamous...Interestingly, Diane had shared Tony's conclusions about monogamy: for her it was just another way the patriarchy controlled women's bodies."

"When he did sleep he dreamed of Diane, the worst dream—the dream where she still loved him—and when he woke he was alone again."

well damn

"Men and woman alike confounded Paul; they were so rule-bound. Straight people seemed confused by each other, so anxious to find camaraderie within their gender, so startled by differences between their bodies, always pinning explanations for the inevitable gulf between humans on chromosomes."

"'Woman Who Posed As A Man Is Found Slain With 2 Others,' the headline read."

[...]

"'/He was in here all the time with girls, and the girls were hanging all over him, Ms. Gresham said/. He sounds like a total player.'

'/She/,' said Zoe.

'Right,' said Paul. 'She.'"

"He could tell she liked that he was girlier than her, liked that she was so much bigger than him, liked to do little things for him, but sometimes he did wonder if she liked liking what she liked."

"Her shoulders were broader than his. You'll stretch it! he thought helplessly when she'd borrowed his shirt that morning, but no, better, he'd sacrifice his shirts for her. He'd wear the stretched-out shirt thinking /Diane's body was here and I am now inside the space she left, I fit myself inside her shape./"

"Heterosexuality = marriage = death, Paul knew."

well yes girl! straight men are horrible at fucking!

"Paul waited for her in the dark kitchen, pouring glasses of water and hoping Christopher wouldn't wake up and wonder why lesbians were fighting in the apartment."