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Listening to the audiobook and I honestly love it so far.

« She would not die. She would not fade away, passive, listless, into the black. She knew this much. But that was all she knew. »

I might be dense, but I have literally no idea where this is going. It's only 17% left and I kinda feel like we didn't make progress, really? Or walk towards an ending I mightve expected? Curious we stay.

Uff, uff, uff, uff.

« This is an arbitrary game of egos and narcissists and bullying perceived as strength. And he was the perfect incarnation of the system’s nonsense. »

Sadly true in our real life, too.

This is about the point where i actually start liking the book!!!

« She could not understand how you could open your mind to someone so completely, for so long, and then slam it shut again. »

that whole scene hits too close to home, ooofffffffff.

uhhh things are actually getting interesting now

« I never agreed to the price they chose, so let my love be unbreakable and brutal and cruel and endless, the harbinger of war and the summoner of violence. Let it be all those things and more because I am done sacrificing myself for the stars and their entertainment. I am done being a puppet in their games. »

« It was like drinking sweet tasting poison night after night, knowing it would one day melt my insides, but in the meantime, I was addicted to its flavour. »

« This was torture of the sweetest kind, and I was a glutton for punishment because I was all in. »

H O L Y F U C K that whole scene was like 500x hotter than it should've been O H B O Y

« “Not a possession, no. But you are mine. You were mine before we met, and mine the minute we locked eyes. You are mine in this life, and every life we may experience from this point forward. You are mine in every reality you exist, and mine in every reality you don’t. And I am yours in kind.” »

UEBDJBDKWNYOWBDMDBMOAHSOEBE *inaudible screaming*

« “Lie to me, Cal. Tell me it will all be okay, even as the walls crumble and the earth shatters beneath our feet. Lie to me so good that I don’t feel it when our world falls to ruin.” »

currently i find them... kinda childish and boring idk the dialogues are lowkey cringeworthy sometime

« “I promise, Emery, when I kill you it will be with my knife to your heart. You’ll see me coming. You’ll know without a doubt that I’m going to take your life.” »

« “Shady is kind of our thing. You either get down and dirty with the heathens or I’m afraid the Dark Forces will eat you up, pretty girl.” »

« “Welcome to the pack, love. I certainly hope you’re ready to get your hands a little red.” »

« “Is that why you burden me with those longing, haunting eyes? Do you find my story to be a sad one? What are you yearning for, Emery? Tell me, and whatever it is, I will give it to you.”. »

ok ok we are getting there, this is the Moronova writing i enjoy

« Affection. Soft. Tender. All things that Mori is not supposed to be. All things I’m certain he’s not. »

Sadly I do not love it as much as Leave Me Behind yet. But we stay positive.

« “Ah, so you only adore the tragedies then.” Cameron closes his book and lets it topple from his lap to the floor. “We are all only tragedies eventually. Even the romantics.” »

Manchmal hat das Buch doch recht nette Passagen, wo ich mir denke "hm also wenn alles so wäre, wäre es definitiv cooler". Der Coffee-Workshop war doch ganz süß. Aber 90% denk ich mir immernoch ... Just why.

Cringe as fuck, wie er sie judged dafür dass sie Latte Macchiato bestellt?? Und dann basically gaslighted dazu sich doch etwas anderes zu bestellen?? High horse, bro. (Immerhin props to her, dass sie danach crashout schiebt.)

[Audiobook] Ja, okay, es ist eine Klischee-Romanze, aber als er von der "Kleinen" redet die ja aber keine Kleine sei, weil "sie ist ja Anfang 20" und von ihrer "überraschend tiefen Stimme" hab ich schon deutlich das Gesicht verzogen.

Empire of the Damned? More like Empire of the Traumatised and the Broken and Those who can't catch a fucking break.

« 'You love him'. 'I do', he breathed. 'But love is mortal. Blood is eternal.' »

E X C U S E M E AARON IS WHAT?????
(i am living for this ngl)

Is this situation realistic? No. Do i care? No. I am here for the sapphic tension and yearning finally breaking and y-e-s it does.

« Sadness was heavy. If it needed a shape, it would steal a humans. »

« In the end, she would live as nothing more than a ghost or fever dream in Violette’s memory, an ambiguous presence to be yearned for. »