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lesbian sex is so beautiful

INTERRUPTED KISS TROPE GODDDDDDDD JUST SHOOT ME POINT BLANK WHY DONT YOU

oh the stressful confused joys of starting a new fantasy book

AS I HAVE SAID. IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN. F U C K. DIANA. omfg i hate that bitch i need her dead in a ditch i’m so serious omfg my poor baby nan has been through enough i’m so sick. i’m glad florence agreed to let her stay but i’m so sick dude please just let nan be happy

fuck diana first of all. it has always been fuck diana.

and i have very mixed feelings about kitty. i love them together but kitty hurt nan so fucking bad like it makes me want to kkkkkkmmmmsssss

BITCH???? STTRRRRAAAAPPPP???? WE GOT A STRAP. SEX SCENE. OHHHHMMYMYYYGFODDDJSKSJAJJSAJSJ

Anyway… i am very skeptical of diana or whatever her name is… idk she just seems very fishy and i’m sad that nancy left the apartment she was just at :( and left the nice girl hanging as well :( i’m glad she no longer has to do the male prostitution but idk something about this is just weirddddd

nan my butch lesbian 3 i’m glad she’s sorta okay now but i hate that she’s taking the kind of job she is :( but i assume jt also makes her happy being mistaken for a man bjt ugh idk i hope she gets back into theater and becomes super ultra successful or :( idk. ALSO I THOUGHT WALTER WAS GAY FOR A SECOND… I STG IF HES GAY AND THEY HAVE A BEARD RELATIONSHIP IM GONNA GO CRAZY

just finished part one. kitty you are going to hell.
jk (kinda) but holy fuck my heart is broken for nan. i had always felt a bit… fishy… about kitty but omg i didn’t want it to be true so bad.
i just really hope nan finds a welcoming lesbian community and becomes herself again :( im so sad for her. and hopefully kitty is just experiencing terrible comphet & i know it was scary being gay back then but urggh

i’m so happy they’re together now but i’m really terrified kitty will falter on her feelings bcs of something happening to them at a show :( like being hatecrimed or something like idk it’s giving me anxiety

holy fuck i need them to have sex NOW

oh my god. i don’t like to use the term gay panic bcs i feel it can be cheesy. but that is exactly what i feel when i read this book. every 5 pages i am having to pause to take a deep breath or kick my feet or quietly scream into my hands. kitty butler i want you so bad

holy fuck susan’s mental ward arc is genuinely i think the most depressing thing i have ever read in my life. oh my fucking god. i’m so glad he’s out but gentleman and everybody in that fucking house (maud ur on thin ice) is going to HELLLLL YOU’RE GOING TO HELLLLLLLLLLL I STGGGGG

HOLD ON. HUH. MRS SUCKSBY IS HER ACTUAL MOM??? WAIT HUH

i’m also scratching my head at the fact that she did all that. just to go back to their house :|

holy fuck. the baby switching plot twist is fucking INSAAAAAANE WHAT THE FUCK. WHATTTTT THE FUCK. AND THEM LOOKING AT MAUD LIKE SHES CRAZY TO BE SHOCKED BY IT???????

all the handmaiden parallels are driving me insane (yes ik the book came first)

the “what do i do on my wedding night scene” ohhhh my fucking god i was kicking my feet

current theories
- i think the picture of the woman in her locket is a past lover, not her mom
- i think she wanted to learn to dance for susan, not for gentleman

but also maybe im thinking too gay about this that’s my fault BUT ALSO the way she gets susan to now sleep with her every night and they constantly walk arm in arm now… yeah…

WHY AM I JUST LEARNING THIS IS WHAT THE HANDMAIDEN IS LOOSELY BASED OFF OF???? OH IM SO LOCKED IN

i have never read a book narrated like this and i’m ngl to you i am struggling so hard. i will try to persevere

hm.

i should’ve read this in october i’m so pissed.

the made up original death was crazy btw

AT THE FINAL PART IM GONNA BE SICK. I DON’T WANT IT TO END WHAT DO I DO.

also dumai and nikeya please have a happy ending i’m gonna be sick

the whole crew together for like 5 minutes let’s go ALSO SO MANY GAY KISSES. NIKEYA AND DUMAI IM TWEAKING THE FUCK OUTTTJRJDJDJSHSHSJSJSJSJSJZHS

kanifa dead. osipa dead. tunuva cheating. glorian with a 70 year old man and hasn’t gotten pregnant from wulf after multiple tries. is there anything happy going on in this book rn

glorian marrying a 70 year old fucking man. i feel genuinely sick to my stomach i feel so terrible for her

dumai is so fucking gay

just got to part 3. omfg
i’m ngl it was taking me forever to read part 2 because i was very confused and lost on a lot of things and overall slightly bored, but then it all finally switched
1. canthe pretending to be saghul & ordering to kill anyso??
2. dumai and nikeya being enemies to lovers. so fucking good i can’t wait
3. bardholt and sabran DYING????? THAT FAST????? THAT SUDDENNN???????? WWWWHHHAAAAATTTTTTTT

i miss sabran and ead… i really like all of these main characters though :)

priory… my brain hurts

here we go again

EAD IS BACK BABYYYYYYYYYYY!!!! now don’t EVER do that shit again. also i liked tané before but these latest chapters have made me reaaaally like her and the fact that she went through all of that in the priory just to help ead (granted she kinda had to for the other jewel but…) raaaahhhh she’s so young please let her just have fun with her dragon bro