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gatsby like a kid pulling out all his stops on the first go… the light at the deck, the clippings. seems to be working out better for him than it did for me tho

tom is not shy about his affair and it is clear the wealth and status he carries which to many is desirable. why else would you forgive a smack? but also tim knows he belongs with daisy society wise

ima have to sparks note every chapter: daisy unhappy gabby and his green light nick is new money and tom is old and jordan is a little strange and daisy doesn’t like to be a mom and all of this i remember from hs (tho why any teacher would expect a hs er to follow along with this flower as language is beyond me)

THEY KISSED and we never got told what a decker was or how it worked and so many povs and so dramatic but i prolly would have ate it up as an angsty teen

why do i still not know what a decker is… everyone is so oooo dramatic. also why are there so many pov’s but now i see this guy is gonna wanna beat refuse up but mateo will save him. also will they kiss????

what is a decker and how is it determine also why does this system exist??? the writing style has me for a min with mateo but with rufus it feels icky. how do they know… but also excited to read a book that helps me remember every day is s gift and maybe that way i can too be less paranoid and maybe stop sleeping them awa. ik kayla likes this book so expectations are kinda high

i think this book has so much potential. it could have been messy, it could have said something but it instead chose to be unrealistic and throw in the towel early. everyone just assumes correctly in this book, what is the fun in that

why are they kissing??! why didn’t david cheat??!?! bruh hhhhh so rushed so unfulfilling her best friend is ______ with a ring on her hand and they are kissing

wincing from a needle in the arm during infusion pissed me off. lmao

thinking about having crushes on friends’ exes and how sad and unnecessary this book will feel if b dies and get together. kinda icky. also i feel like david is cheating but he also seems so invested maybe i’m wrong. idk how this author is going to convince me to root for dannie and aaron

hmm i guess i was expecting the main character to not be where she wants to begin the book. i don’t find the writing charming (although s/o to the main line) and find it a little hard to root for someone whose life is going (as of rn) exactly how she wants. also sex scene so early on?? with what is technically a stranger?? like i said, not charmed atm

what is rom’s deal. also jarty is already losing this story to the higher ups so all his sneaking around was sorta pointless

i am hooked on all the mystery and sad every time someone else’s accomplishments are covered. as an atheist i do not know if this book will strengthen my current beliefs or poke holes at them, i just know it is beautifully devastating and i am about to learn more about the narrator

there was s chapter about feeling lost as a twenty something and a nurse and someone who wished them back

are you my mother? i liked that chapter about his in our twenties we don’t know who we belong to or who belongs to us

that many long term marriages struggle with affairs is a reality i do not feel ready to accept although i know there were times in my own previous relationship where how i felt about someone other than my partner would have upset me. i just don’t want to believe it could happen to me :( it would reinforce some notion in me that is already convinced i’m not enough

“i chose to love this time for once with all my intelligence “ — not taking someone back who hurt me, not refusing to ask a logical (although intimate) question when intimacy has been reached

the chapter waiting by the phone made me feel so comforted. we may all miss someone in our life who doesn’t miss us, we may all let the thought of them absorb us, but there comes a comment where we have to make a decision to help ourselves through it even if that decision comes after unhelpful decisions (calling them, driving to their house, searching them up on social media and spiraling). it takes time and effort

i’m so sad for the girl with the evil brother

it’s august and i’m thinking of you as i read these pages but also of me. what drew me to you, what i learned from you, what i want, what i dream, and what i can gain from leaving you in the past as my life where you wish to stay

“so many tortuous runs in this life. don’t let a man who doesn’t love you be one of them” sighhhh brand new day and ms sugar are on my list… of things i gots to discuss in therapy because i am in fact tortured by it

i was keeping up with every email and then i started reading late at night and here we are. i started therapy again and this book feels like a hug. she talked about some dark stuff, also she wrote about sexual fantasies and se wrote a graduation speech (hours i wish i could rewrite mine) and she talked about religion and it all resonated so beautifully. i wish it was always that easy to find a silver lining in all

i personally think my heartbreak has made me a very annoying friend and have wondered how my friends who have endured heartbroken me for years must feel about it all.. this never ending cycle from someone that should probably know better? ik they’re tired and they always mean well and i value them for that. i also fear i am quick to cut people off
sex! it’s on everyone’s mind!!!

i had a bundle on my head and even though it took years i am alright and happy to have discovered other people’s touch and affection (for the most part)
insecurity is a branch of too much self importance and it is hard to stat but you have to
sugar gives much better advice than i ever would because i still refuse to talk to my dad lmao

i guess it is best to be who you are authentically then to live a comfy life hiding yourself because rly ur not comfy at all, just trapped
everyone loves x but wants to suck z because it’s easy to make up fantasies about someone
i too loved a father who was no good to my mother and she was always kind regarding him to us while maintaining her boundaries and i love that and adore that about her

sometimes i like her bluntness and sometimes i find it crude
on the failing marriage story i do feel like long term monogamy can stunt you because i think my ideals for a relationship are rooted in my expectations when i was barely a teenager but was so lucky to be in love
on stuck, how grateful am i that the worst things to happen to me is to be heart broken time and time again, how lucky i am to have loved and lost