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I freaking LOVE Kenji !
WHY ISN’T HE THE MAIN CHARACTER?!

100 pages so far.. 85 of them is just Juliette’s meaningless blabber and 15 pages of actual events.
I sincerely hope she dies in this book :)

I seriously love this book!

I understand nothing. :3

' The mightiest power of death is not that it can make people die, but that it can make the people left behind want to stop living. '

(When you were little, you were a brave girl, a fearless firecracker.
This year, you were nominated “Most Changed Since Elementary School.” )

What if who I am tomorrow is an entirely different person than who I am right now? Or, worse, what if it isn’t?

بعض المشاعر تضيق بها الكلمات فتعانق الصمت

السعادة المفرطة كالحزن تماماً، تضيق بها النفس ان لم نشارك بها احداً

'أشرت الى صدري قائلا: 'ان الإيمان يسكن هنا.. وبدعوتك هذه
وجهت سبابتي الى رأسي:
'انت تحاول ان تجعله هنا، وهنا لا يستقر الايمان كثيرا'
ماذا تعني؟' سألني والريبة في عينيه'
'اجبته بثقة لم أعدها: 'لا مكان للإيمان في غير القلب

تركت جهاز اللابتوب على الطاولة متجهاً الى سريري و الحيرة في رأسي. أيهما الإسلام؟ أهو الذي شاهدته في "الرسالة"، أم الذي قضى على مخرج فيلم الرسالة؟

وحده الصمت قادر على تحفيز أصوات بداخلنا

لأول مرة اشعر بأنني وحيد، وبأنني أملك مصيري بيدي. شعور بالفزع انتابني حين شعرت بأن لا ملجأ الي .. سواي،

تحفر المشاهد المأساوية نقوشها على جدران الذاكرة، في حين ترسم السعادة صورها بألوان زاهية. تمطر سُحُب الزمن.. تهطل الامطار على الجدران.. تأخذ معها الالوان.. وتُبقي لنا النقوش

لكل منا دينه الخاص، نأخذ من الاديان ما نؤمن به، ونتجاهل ما لا تدركه عقولنا، أو، نتظاهر بالايمان، ونمارس طقوساً لا نفهمها، خوفاً من خسارة شيء نحاول ان نؤمن به.

Reading this book for the second time because I sort of missed how great books could be.

"She was gone, and yet she was more present than anyone else."

"I just want to live until I can't anymore."

" I don't know that we are actually human at this point, those of us who are like most of us, who grew up with TV and movies and now the Internet. [..] we know the words to say. We are all working from the same dog-eared script. It's a very difficult era in which to be a person, just a real, actual person, instead of a collection of personality traits selected from an endless Automat of characters. "

"And we are quotation marks, inverted and upside down m, clinging to one another at the end of this life sentence. Trapped by lives we did not choose."

"I will be alive in ten years, and I'm going to be happy. I'm going to be strong. And I don't need anyone to tell me that anymore. I am enough, and I always will be."

"There is nothing wrong with you that isn't already wrong with me," I say quietly. "And if I were smart I'd first figure out how to fix myself."

"Words, I think, are such unpredictable creatures. No gun, no sword, no army or king will ever be more powerful than a sentence. Swords may cut and kill, but words will stab and stay, burying themselves in our bones to become corpse we carry into the feature, all the time digging and failing to rip their skeleton from our flesh."

" [..]. But do not presume to understand my actions." He says, finally meeting my eyes. "Because if you do, I can assure you you'll only be met with disappointment. And if you insist on continuing to make assumption about my character, I'll advise you only this: assume you will always be wrong."

"I will have died having accomplished nothing. I'm still no one. I'm nothing more than a silly little girl [...]. And I think, if I could do it over again, I'd do it so differently. I'd be better. I'd make something of myself. I'd make a difference in this sorry, sorry world."

"I want to laugh one of those strange, high pitched, delusional laughs that signals the end of a person's sanity. Because this world, I think, has a terrible, terrible sense of humor. It always seems to be laughing at me. At my expense. Making my life infinitely more complicated all the time. Ruining all my best-laid plans by making every choice so difficult. Making everything so confusing."

Well, damn. I had a billion possible scenario in my head but never thought of THAT. I can't wait to see what happens next and I really hope Mafi didn't just ruin the whole thing.

"But I get scared, sometimes. In my very limited experience I've already found that people seeking power are not to be trusted. People with lofty goals and fancy speeches and easy smiles have done nothing to calm my heart. Men with guns have never put me at ease no matter how many times they promised they were killing for good reason."