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isla do you have a death wish

what the hell is going on

smart girl irene
shut the fuck up isla
take an autism assessment agnes

i don’t understand why they didn’t take the money. so now they get no money?

Maté’s insistence on depending on parental instincts is interesting as a very anxious person who does not trust her own instincts.

I was also surprised to read about how traumatizing childbirth can be for the mother. The common theme seems to be that forcing conformity to a culture that is almost inhuman is traumatizing in itself. It seems easier to follow the path of least resistance, but there is a cost.

the fathers emotional state during pregnancy affects the fetus more than the mothers because the mother often ends up parenting the father … interesting

the mothers job is taking care of the child and the fathers job is taking care of the mother. we have reached an agreement there.

now that’s what i’m talking about

i am going to finish this today.

god i need this book to be over

i think there’s too much emphasis on stress driving illness. i don’t think it does. i think stress, trauma, etc. can *enable* illness, as stress weakens the body’s immune response (or can cause the immune system to overcompensate as seen with autoimmune conditions). if the body is busy dealing with repressed trauma and emotions, it can’t deal with health crises.

it’s like as soon as you get interested in the character the chapter ends

chronological age = age in years
biological age = age based on cells and telomeres
stress increases biological age. it’s no wonder that women mature faster than men; biologically, they age faster (in a patriarchal society)

i think i’ve escaped the apples. the current chapter reminds me of a horror movie that i can’t remember the name of. basically a psychic faking it accidentally discovers real spirits

one thing that is interesting is the emphasis that trauma ≠ the traumatic event. the event results in the trauma as a wound to the nervous system

ENOUGH WITH THE APPLES

well that took a turn

“From the beginning, it was the apple that had defined their days.” GOD DAMN IT MORE APPLES

apple mans section kinda dragged im sorry i cannot get with the apples

so it’s short stories with the same setting/house? i’m into it

finally damn

will they won’t they will they won’t they

i take that back i get it now im into it now

yawn

is anything going to happen or

i don’t know who half of these characters are

well that was a twist. the title makes more sense now. but also are we ever going to touch on the disease the island brings or

this man has gone mad. i’m also not 100% convinced he is alive. theres a nonzero chance the island is actually his personal hell, but i’m pretty sure he’s just crazy and/or sick from the marshes.