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“After all, it should be your exclusive expiation. Only you have a debt to pay off, and you dont want to run up debts with other creditors at the same time…A sense of guilt, as well as the need for expiation, for a cleansing baptism of fire, aren't things you can claim an exclusive right to. Life differs from banking because it has debts which are paid off by running up debts with others."

3x Beverly to Canal, Q
1x Court to Church, G

“Geralt explained patiently that political geography was to blame for everything.”

N Train, Canal to 35th x1
Q Train, Beverly to Canal x3

In first becoming the dice man, my audience was changed from my peers in psychiatry to Blake, Nietzsche, Lao-Tzu. My goal was to destroy all sense of an audience: to become without values, evaluators, without desires: to be inhuman, all-inclusive, God. In moving the dice man into sexual research, however, what I aspired to was a piece of ass.

Q - Beverly to 63rd Lex x1
Q - Canal to Beverly x1
G - Church to Nassau x1

i didn’t know i could like a memoir so much

“A decade later my understanding would shift, part of my heavy swing into adulthood, and after that the accident would always make me think of the Apache women, and of all the decisions that go into making a life-the choices people make, together and on their own, that combine to produce any single event.“

Canal to Beverly x1
Church to W4 x1

still not really sure what this book is doing

Q, Beverly to Canal x1
F, Bway Lafayette to Beverly x1

“There's unexplored terrain lurking in known shapes, unmapped quadrants waiting to be located by means of simple shifts in perspective. "Unknown" and "unseen" aren't synonyms, but they're linked by more than their prefixes.
I'm sure of this now. Live and learn.”

14th St to Church x1
Church to W 4 x1

beverly to canal x1

1 Q train, Beverly to Canal

1 Q ride

queer teenage hasidic love affair has increased my enjoyment of this book greatly

i must say the first 20 pages or so of the second part almost made me quit because of how dull they were

made an audible sound of disgust at the end of part one

i feel like ive read 1,000 pages of this book already

2 Q train trips

how are you supposed to know if the writing of a book is mediocre or if it’s just the translation’s fault? what if it’s both

“Let us pretend to be professional, you and I, for hell and the gentry await."

“…keep your hand close to your sword."

I paused. "My sword is, ah... still made of wood, ma'am."

She frowned and cocked her head. "Oh. Well... in that case, make sure your boots are laced up proper, boy, so you can run like hell."

“There’s always another wet season, Din.”

“And so it was strange to be nearly forty and not the beautiful, erotic adult woman to my own ten-year-old daughter. To be still the guilty, creeping child.”

“No one on the internet had asked me not to kill myself; in fact one of them had suggested I take my book out onto the penthouse balcony and use it as a parachute. It didn't matter that I lived twenty floors below the actual penthouse. These people cared nothing for nuance.”

I felt stupid, like we’d spent all this effort searching our bodies for an old scar that had already healed, just to cut into the same patch of skin again, all because we wanted to confirm that it did once exist, that there used to be a time when we were bleeding.

Still, when I think about what I want for you, I won't hesitate to say that I want you to live for yourself and forget about everything else you think you need to care for. So what is preventing us from choosing the easy way out? Is it love?