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wait i’m scared

(spoiler)
that awkward moment when instead of creating a dream man to date you create the embodiment of your unexplored desire for the woman you love and to be the kind of (man) she would love, the embodiment of everything you ever weren’t while select men around you were, and then you find out he’s actually fkn on ur lady… #awkward

v much wondering how much of the queerness of this book is intentional or not bc it’s currently very representative of realizing past crushes were more so men with traits you’d like to embody in a masculine way but that doesn’t really feel reachable. also the confusion of female peers seeking out whatever the hell men when that’s never been enticing to you, whereas this incredible woman on the other hand…

uhhh i’m getting a little close to the end and all the men haven’t blown up yet ..?

putting up w the perspective shifts because i’m enjoying
at least it will be easy to put down for a couple weeks when i return to reality

A self always on the move. I give in to a simplicity I don’t believe in. I guess

PATHETIC FALLACY

I look at her for as long as I can without vanishing entirely


struggling with the lack of quotations more than with Sally Rooney, but it matters less. i like that i’m not sure if some lines are emendation to memory or the narrators back and forth or both

there’s nothing to forgive

wow