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Screaming, crying, throwing up. I finished it but I am too stunned/depressed to write my review at the moment, and I need to reflect on it for a little while. I knew this was a dark novel, but hey, I was still not prepared!

This is officially the most gut-wrenching novel I’ve ever read. And it’s a tragedy, and I’m not even at the denouement yet. (Although I looked up certain spoilers because I couldn’t handle the foreshadowing). To be continued. It’s going to be difficult to gather all my many thoughts on this.

I have such a sense of foreboding

This has thrown me many curveballs so far... why do I get the feeling it's about to wreck me.

"This is fascinating. The author has a (vague, tentative) belief that there is a God and he relates existential principles to principles of faith through a discussion of Kierkegaard. I need to investigate Kierkegaard further to really know what I make of him. I feel like I can finally define existentialism, and the chapter on anxiety was so simple and yet so helpful: anxiety can be "done well" or "done poorly.""

This is fascinating. The author has a (vague, wavering) belief that there is a God and he relates existential principles to principles of faith through a discussion of Kierkegaard. I need to investigate Kierkegaard further to really know what I make of him. I feel like I can finally define existentialism, and the chapter on anxiety was so simple and yet so helpful: anxiety can be "done well" or "done poorly."

Most entertaining chapter yet. "I came to love my rows, my beans, though so many more than I wanted." "It was no longer beans that I hoed, nor I that hoed beans" (instead he was making music by adding to the sounds of nature when his hoe made stones ring, no longer just himself but part of nature's orchestra)... hilarious. I aspire to be half as whimsical as this man was.

Why am I about to borrow an axe and head into the woods?

Bro. I'm about to throw hands, and I don't even live on the Great Lakes.

This is so upsetting already