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can’t stop writing. i’m vomiting words now.

every time i remember, all that i ask myself is how can someone be so cruel? how does one could keep on loving someone that utter such things? it’s a nauseating behavior. what a waste. it’s so sad that i have memorized moments like this. to think that i endured listening to horrible, cynical and terrifying words just because i felt helpless and guilty. but even the guilty deserves credit.

poems, poems, poems and more poems. it seems like i am trapped between words and sorrow is drowning face with language. at least i keep myself alive, always writing to give a relief to the mind

As nostalgia hits negative state I finally get off my knees. No God in sight, I am my own believer.

I am no judge, I am no mistress and I am capable of sin.

And I?
I was burning. Gathering. Reaching.
Too far away to exhaust myself,
I envision only what wants to held by these hands
I am somehow a woman whose mind has been consumed
Unintentionally, uninterested in things I can never inspire

honey, dear… will you ever wake up?

sincerely yours,