Baylee Maddox > Recent Status Updates

oh i’m gonna be sick

behaving this way while calling him elly?? i’ll cry

ugh these boys are just tearing me UP

“i actually believed that our civilization that has developed further than any other in the history of the world, giving us telephones & trains & flying, for Gods sake, we can fly, I thought surely such a civilization, that prides itself on conquering the beast in man & seeks only to bend towards beauty & prosperity, surely, surely, surely, it would not shatter in such a vile and disgusting way.”

oh my god

“i don’t care to be part of any group where you aren’t welcome”

“you’ll write more poems. they are not lost. you are the poetry”

now kiss!!!

“gaunt wanted to scream. the bridge should break in half under the weight of us.” SHUT UP

my coworker friend recommended this book to me on tuesday and had it in my hands 2 days later so now i’m 24 pages in & sick. this will likely destroy me

i feel manic reading this already

“We are flying over a ball of fire…. There are microbes everywhere that make us sick and die. There are wars. There is a poverty that makes us all cruel. Every second something might happen that will cause you such suffering that you'll never have enough tears…. Forget it, it was the Devil who invented the world, not the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.”

being a 14 year old girl pinning after a nonchalant boy is so tough

“‘this is a crooked, dumb, boring game,’ she says, ‘and if i had my scrabble set here i’d show you dudes some real action.’”

finally something in this book i can relate to

“Then Lila let out a shout and laughed at the violent explosion of sound. Immediately I shouted and laughed in turn. From that moment all we did was shout, together and separately: laughter and cries, cries and laughter, for the pleasure of hearing them amplified.”

imagining two little girls frolicking around for the first time on their own is gonna make me emo

i want to be done with this so bad

“i’m old because i’m not dead” 🥺

“I try to understand people but they make it hard”

off to a good start here

this author likes to list things

“let me just exist with you. happier than ever”

“i went from a relationship where something like a game night was inconceivable, to watching her being touched by him, enjoying it, existing in a way she never could with me” :(

listening

i don’t really like the way they talk about the only woman in this book

grief is so brutal

crying more