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“I have always considered myself cleverer than any of the people surrounding me, and sometimes, would you believe it, have been positively ashamed of it.”

“As a child, I had so romanticized the act of growing up, the littlest adult. Now I’ve made it here and it’s not at all how I imagined. I lie in bed wishing away this reality.”

Fairy Tuck Mother 🧚‍♀️

I’m only 36 pages in and I already hate this book. Poor Haymitch 😭

“Yet a strange hope remains. A hope that somehow, something, God, the demon, Ahura Mazda, someone, will see I’m trying. I’m really trying, and that will be enough.”

“Where do all the things you believed go, when all the supporting structure is found to be a myth?”

“Maybe God was a demon — that would explain much of the misery of earth life. Would prayer do any good? I could not tell.”

“Injustice?” queried the demon sarcastically. “You were never concerned with justice a day in your life except when it was in your favor. Bye.”

“When my thoughts get into such an extreme dimension, I do think to myself, ‘Why on earth do I go on living like this?’ There are happy things, but I have to keep competing and coming up with ideas and those anxieties are still larger than the happy things, you know? When my feelings are consumed by rage, I just want to die.”

“I hate the way my face looks, so who cares how many times a day someone says I’m pretty? I will only continue to absorb the words that are critical of me.”

This section really resonated with me. Why do we hold so strongly to the words that have hurt us in the past? Even years later, they tend to be all that we remember.

Humans claim that the human body is “beautiful”, but if you go outside naked, they arrest you immediately, so what does that tell you?