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rereading this book again because i got stuck in the second book (i couldn't really recall some of the characters & the backstory)

i feel like Julie is on her way to move on but it must be difficult especially when the calls she's had with Sam are scheduled and days apart and always filled with static. i feel like something can be made between Julie and Tristan but i'm not sure if it'll work because he's way younger...

it scared me when their connection became weird & static-like after the call Sam had with Mika. i also see Sam's demeanor changing after that call, like he's more distant & cold, easily agitated with Julie and it rubs me off weird... could the lantern not flying away indicate what Julie thinks or could it just indicate that she is the one that's holding on & not Sam listening?

i would've thought Oliver likes Julie but he likes Sam instead? never expected it. i wonder if Julie will tell Mika about their phone calls

i can't imagine how scary it is to keep dreaming about the same incident knowing you can't do anything to change what had happened. Sam seems a bit more easily closed off when talking about not saying goodbyes and stuff, makes me wonder what's tipping him over the edge

i understand how it feels when Mika confronted Julie about not showing up. i feel for Julie more because i'm always told i let go of my responsibilities as a child to help the family's shop but they could never understand where i'm coming from. i feel for Julie too with how she doesn't really know how to express her feelings well, she kind of dissociated when people talk about him until she's at the brink.

i keep getting chills while reading that she's talking to Sam on call – part of it is scary calling a ghost, another part is comforting. the way he reacts to her asking where he is & the answer he gives her makes me wonder a lot on whether he knows himself or he doesn't. oliver appearing & being friendly with julie makes me wonder if there is going to be some sort of relationship between him & julie, who knows?

I like it so far, it's easy to read. I like how the prologue shows how Julie drifts through her different memories with Sam in contrast with her character in the first chapter where she's trying to discard all memories and items associated with Sam because she doesn't want to remember him anymore.