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“I’m going to savour this.”
„You’re very sure you’ll survive that.”
„No,” I say, and brush my mouth just below her ear. “I’m fairly sure this is how I die.”

oh their banter

oh the age gap is too big for me but I hope they will not be mentioning their age every second and I can just forget how big it is

I really hope the ebook version has proper TW…

Kindle app says I have 2,5h left but my eyeballs need a break 😔

it’s also trying to be too political while still being a sexy romance and the balance so far is a bit off, we’ll see how it goes later

it’s way too many things at once and I don’t think it’s fully working. They are ex friends, now kinda enemies, but she’s head over heels about him, he’s cocky, but obviously needs to later turn out to be one of the good guys, I’m not fully buying the way she’s so passionate about saving the clinic, and don’t get me started on the whole podcast thing

the page count is killing me but somehow it is rather fast to read so overall not bad

“I wish so much that I could have her back, now that I feel I know her. But sometimes we only get lucky enough to understand people once they’re gone.”

“you are my first daughter. The first thing that ever happened to me that ever felt bigger than me, than my sadness.”

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I am in public, I cannot cry

“You’re smart and everyone knows you’ll do big things, but I wonder if you question whether you want to or not? Is being capable of greatness necessarily an indication that you should grasp it? Is greatness all so that we can be remembered how we want to be?”

oh ok

“But my heart breaks again. I am omitted, again from my mother’s last words.”

mine does too

the effort I’m putting into holding back my tears can be considered a workout

“It scared the shit out of me, because I’m afraid of losing you. But I do believe it’s better to love and lose. And I already lost you. So many times. Now I just want to love you.”

“Because I love you. I’ve always loved you. I’m always gonna love you. And there’s a reason I can’t find this feeling anywhere else. It’s because it’s not lust. It’s not love. It’s you.”

“You shouldn’t have had to do that. You didn’t have to. But you did do it, and I’m so grateful. I’m so grateful you did because I got to be a stupid kid for a whole lot longer. The only problem is . . . You didn’t.”

-I didn’t want to be the one to fix everything. I’d been fixing everything for so long.
-Yeah, and whose fault is that?
-It’s not my-
-Nobody asked you to do the things you did for everyone.Nobody even needed you to, a lot of the time.The thing is,you don’t trust anybody to know what they need.You work tirelessly behind the scenes to give people things they never asked for,and won’t appreciate like you hope

“Joke’s on me, though. It’s not like the distance made me love you less. Instead I just got exactly what I was afraid of. I lost you anyway. That goes for everyone.”

“Sammie, it’s so hard to love you as much as I do. I’m always afraid of losing you, like I’ve lost everyone else.”

“Since I was fifteen years old I’ve felt like I was the only adult in the room, and I never asked for that. Then when Dad’s fucking funeral happened and I had to do everything again and Babe didn’t help and you didn’t help and his wife didn’t help . . . and then I asked you to come, and you didn’t”

“Because I did everything for you for years, gave up my childhood to take care of you and then you were just going to throw it all away! For someone so terrible.”
😭😭😭😭

“her heart ached for someone who would just . . . care for her. Someone who could catch her if she fell. She felt an awful lot like falling.”

“No. If nobody was going to be around to catch her, then she simply wouldn’t fall.
She’d take care of herself, like always. Only this time, she’d take care of *just* herself.”

“She gave him every opportunity to show her that she was wrong, that he didn’t want to lose her. Every opportunity. She wanted him to fight for her. It would have been easy.”

“It had been so long since she’d heard him laugh. And, she one day realized, so long since she’d felt loved. She started to wonder if that was because, maybe, she wasn’t anymore.”