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“Your hair really is so long,” he says. “And you never said you had freckles.” “Was I supposed to?” “Freckles might be a deal breaker.” He smiles and the dimple comes back. Cute.

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"And you have no idea how much I wish I didn’t ruin that girl’s life. But I did. At the very least, I helped. And so did you. No, you’re right, you didn’t rape her. And I didn’t rape her. He did. But you . . . and I . . . we let it happen. It’s our fault."

crying

"To miss her each time I pull in a breath of air. To miss her with a heart that feels so cold by itself, but warm when thoughts of her flow through me."
THE WAY I CRIED💔

“You don’t need to watch out for me, Clay.” But I did, Hannah. And I wanted to. I could have helped you. But when I tried, you pushed me away. I can almost hear Hannah’s voice speaking my next thought for me. “Then why didn’t you try harder?”

SENSITIVE TOPIC FOR ME 😢

"Why didn’t you leave me alone, Tyler? My house. My bedroom. They were supposed to be safe for me. Safe from everything outside. But you were the one who took that away. Well . . . not all of it."

brother 😓

"Jessica, my dear, I’d really love to know if you dragged yourself to my funeral. And if you did, did you notice your scar? And what about you—the rest of you—did you notice the scars you left behind? No. Probably not."
That wasn’t possible.
"Because most of them can’t be seen with the naked eye."
Because there was no funeral, Hannah.

GAGGED

"There are some sick and twisted people out there, Alex—and maybe I’m one of them—but the point is, when you hold people up for ridicule, you have to take responsibility when other people act on it."

"A rumor based on a kiss started a reputation that other people believed in and reacted to. And sometimes, a rumor based on a kiss has a snowball effect. A rumor, based on a kiss, is just the beginning."

"I couldn’t believe it. Justin, you lied to my mom. So why did that make me so happy? Because our lies matched. It was a sign."

“There I went again, building up a glamorous picture of a man who would love me passionately the minute he met me, and all out of a few prosy nothings.” SIS… stop being so personal omg

“I felt purged and holy and ready for a new life.” oh… she really really gets it.

“Of course, I would never have succeeded with this scheme if I hadn’t made that A in the first place. And if my Class Dean had known how scared and depressed I was, and how I seriously contemplated desperate remedies such as getting a doctor’s certificate that I was unfit to study chemistry, the formulas made me dizzy and so on.” UMM are you just straight adding a part of my lore??? who gave u my info?? l

“The silence depressed me. It wasn’t the silence of silence. It was my own silence.” she gets it…

“Well, aquariums cost a ton. We were broke then, but my dad found an enormous styrofoam tub somewhere, the kind that has a lid. We could only see in from above, but we made it into the best aquarium ever.”

BRO i have the same childhood memory lmfao

“Know what’s funny about letters? Unless you beg the person who you sent them to, you never get to read the letters you wrote again. Isn’t that weird? Anyway, I’m taking excellent care of your letters, just in case you ever want to know what you sounded like when you were fourteen.”

“someone with Taurus as their Sun sign is not simply just an Earth sign. There are a multitude of other alliances and correlations—perhaps their rising sign is Leo (Fire)”

OH MY not the book just saying my signs… 😭 this is about me(for me)… i can’t prove it (but this was the destiny for me)…

“The measure and make of the Witch is found more subtly in the layers of being, doing, feeling, building, and knowing.”

“our task is to think and act more collectively while supporting the freedom of the individual. to standardize the humane treatment of all people. to expand our idea of human rights to include economic empowerment. to dream and act big. to be the leaders we wish existed. we have the power to reorganize the world and make compassion structural.” clock that

“the forces of racism and heteropatriarchy exist on the interpersonal and structural level. they impact our institutions and insidiously slow down the flow of compassion in our minds.”

real

“the deepest bonds are held together by a bridge of honesty. real love holds space for vulnerability, a place where we can be open, raw, and even share parts of ourselves that are not fully formed but are ready to be expressed.” !!!!!

“if we do not address our accumulated subconscious patterns, they will simply remain there, always affecting how we think, speak, and act. our accumulated wounds
and conditioning will restrict our flexibility and cause us to get stuck in a loop that continues repeating the past.” wow… 30 minutes of having a conversation with someone (a stranger) changed my perception of this… the phrase and the book…

“in reality, the past is constantly pushing itself into the present, inclining us toward replicating old emotions and thoughts. the insistence of our mental past gives us little room to decide for ourselves how we actually want to feel. the past does not take into account how things truly are.”
fr

“the self-awareness needed to stop causing ourselves and others harm is not just about knowing our own inner mechanics, our trauma, the moments when we are projecting, or how our reactions impact our perceptions. it is also about taking the time to understand what society has encoded in our minds without our explicit permission.”
REALLLL