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I shouldn't—Sadie's my friend, if even that. But I'm in her orbit now, and she's becoming my goddamn center of gravity. Whether she realizes it or not.

Ok cute

Two drowning people with lead weights around their ankles may not be each other's salvation; if they hold hands, they'll just sink twice as fast. In the end the weight of carrying each other's broken hearts becomes unbearable.

Benji walks toward the water, but just before he jumps from the rocks Maya calls after him, "Hey!"
He turns around. Her voice breaks. "I hope you're one of the people who gets a happy ending, Benji." The young man nods quickly and turns away before she has a chance to realize how much that means to him.

I hope so too 🥺

No one bows their heads around here, for the simple reason that many of our worst deeds are the result of our never wanting to admit that we're wrong.

This is so unfair. I wish I could do this. I wish I wasn't bro-ken. I wish I was the kind of person who never knew grief. Who only knew love. But I'm not. I'm just not. It’s not fair to Henry to trap him here with me in a messed-up relationship with a messed-up person.

😔

Right as the words leave my mouth, I spot Henry in the corner of my eye, holding a fresh glass of wine for me. He freezes; his face looks pale.

😭 the fact that he heard that

I can already sense how this conflict is gonna play out 😅 and I feel for Bennett bc I can’t imagine being in her position and I know how fear and doubt can creep in but I feel even more for Henry as he doesn’t deserve this 🥺

"Henry could be the thing that lights you up," Sonya con-tinues. "And so could a million other things. But you have to stop pouring water on your matches or nothing will ever hap-pen, and you'll stay in a cycle of sadness until you die alone sitting in your own waste."

“I wanted to be near you. I wanted to be around you all the time. I still do." I swallow. It's still so complicated. "Do you ever think that maybe..." I clear my throat. "That maybe you should like someone who's a little easier? Less messed-up?"
"No." He shakes his head. "Not for a second."

🥹🫶🏼

Slowly, he opens his eyes, but keeps them trained on me, still not daring to look at the view. I take a breath and tell him the truth. "Being up here makes me feel small, but being with you makes me feel significant." We stare at each other, zeroed in, his green There's something between us in this glance. Something elec-tric, something that says, You are safe with me.

moments like these >

“I know you think you're some black hole of sadness and you hate your job, but having your shit together is not a prerequisite for love."

Finally reached the quote that made me interested in this and it definitely hits

“You’ve become one of my favorite people very quickly, and I know that's scary to you, I'm not
trying to scare you, but I need you to know that. You're not letting him down. You're not letting anyone down. It hurts me knowing how much you're carrying. I can't explain it, but I wish...” He taps against his sternum. "I wish I could take it from you and put it here. I wish I could make it better."

🥹 love him

You're still you, you just have more colors, more depth, and, yeah, more pain. And this whole time I only wanted you to let me in and let me love you as the entire person you are. Old Bennet, new Bennet, it's all the same different parts of a whole. You're funny, you're caring, and you feel everything deeply. Don't rob people of that because you can't see it yourself.”

This is such a needed reminder for myself

"I don't know how to do this." “Let's deal with one thing at a time?" He swivels on his stool to face me. "One: I'm not mad at you. A little confused, maybe, but I wanted to give you some space. That's all." “I don't want space." My throat tightens at the realization that want just the opposite. “Me neither." He smiles, and the relief I feel is overwhelm-ing.

I love how kind and reassuring Henry is 🥹

"Did you know I was going to be here?" I ask as I dab. “No." He smiles. "I just keep getting lucky."

Hehe

"And—oh wow, look!" he says pointing to my face with glee. "There's the face again!" “If you don't stop teasing me, I'm going to take you to Times Square for the next outing, " I say, a deadly threat.

The way i wouldn’t take this threat lightly bc that’s the worst place to be 😭😂

“I haven't felt... I haven't felt particularly safe to talk about it. But, I don't know... I kind of feel like talking about it with you."

🥺 so far i see myself relating to Bennett in some way and Henry seems precious

Bless people like Ramona

“I know you’d have given your life for me. But we’re going to get through this, you and me. Because I’m your daughter. I’ve got wolfs blood.”

So happy Maya has loving parents

What an uncomfort-able, terrible source of shame it is for the world that the victim is so often the one left with the most empathy for others.

This

I had an idea about what would happen at that party but I’m still sick anyway

Slow start but it’s been interesting getting to know the characters

I had no idea what I was doing, but I kissed the tip of his nose. Because this wasn't about boys and girls and love and attraction, this was about a human soul needing to feel seen.

🥺

“Fine." He made a growly sound and said, "Uh, something that mattered to her, I guess. I mean, if she was a bookish person like you, Id try to find a special edition of her favorite book or something.”

Cute

"So fight for us." “I swear it." “Then rise, Sir Ulla.”

🥹 this moment and reclaiming her power and person ahh

😭🫨 my two reactions atm bc after one word was said I had a feeling but omg

“Wait for us,” I said, and then I stood and faced the yew.

😭😭😭

I am stressed right now 😭😭