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“Manic-depression distorts moods and thoughts, incites dreadful behaviors, destroys the basis of rational thought, and too often erodes the desire and will to live. … feels psychological in the experience of it; an illness that is unique in conferring advantage and pleasure, yet one that brings in its wake almost unendurable suffering and, not infrequently, suicide.”

“It took me far too long to realize that lost years and relationships cannot be recovered, that damage done to oneself and others cannot always be put right again, and that freedom from the control imposed by medication loses its meaning when the only alternatives are death and insanity.” !!!

new bipolar 1 diagnosis, a mood log, and medicated.

November 2005

mentions of the first crews in 2005
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Khé? - rauwww

“You don’t question Providence. If you can’t have the reality, a dream is just as good.”

Who is this, he thought, in need of love as much as we? Who is he and what is he that, out of loneliness, he comes into the alien camp and assumes the voice and face of memory and stands among us, accepted and happy at last?
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german music, music in german

april 2005 - ushers party?

cta bus route 72 heading west

“You notice, it’s always twilight here, this land, always October, barren, sterile, dead.”
April 2005

meow + kindle

OOOH MYY GODDD

He stopped and searched around with his numb hands for the gun. “Only one cure. Only one way to make them go away, vanish.” A shot rang out, Mr. Xxx fell. The four bodies lay in the sun. Mr. Xxx lay where he fell.

“I’m from Earth! My name is Jonathan Williams, and these—“
“Yes, I know,” soothed Mr. Xxx, and fired his gun.
The captain fell with a bullet in his heart. The other three men screamed. Mr. Xxx stared at them. “You continue to exist? This is superb!…”

giggling

pace is good

someone told me the movie was bad

said the thing