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There was something perpetually tragic about us. Even in moments of peace. We were two empty planets, bound by grief and a gravitational pull neither of us could deny. Destined to collide and end in a fiery death.

I feel sick to my stomach

I was here to collect a debt. Vengeance. My son’s pride. My son’s life. And it’s been long overdue.


SIIICCCKKKK IM SICKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“I don’t care what you want. Go.” I did the thing I should have done when I was eight. When I was ten. When I was thirteen. For the first time in my life, I let my father take care of me. Deal with my bullshit. Help me. I closed the door behind me, shaking my head. Family is destiny.

No because I’m sick to my stomach rn VAAAUGHNN 🥺

“You are nothing like other women. Nothing like other people. But, like all pieces of art, you are bound to break.”

I still don’t know what’s going on ngl but I’m having a good time….i think

I feel so incredibly blessed that I get to go through life with these nine people.  Besides Indy, we’re all a bunch of transplants from other places who found a home in the windy city…and with each other.  I’ll speak for all ten of us when I say, there’s nowhere else we’d rather be.  

RUINED. IM FREAKING RUINED.

All my best memories. He kept them. 
He listens to them still.

RIOOOOOOO OMGGFSWJSJJSKDKS

“I’m going to disembowel every gobshite who’s been assigned to watch you.” “I threatened one of your soldiers at gunpoint.” Of course she did. Falling in love with a normal girl was too big an ask.

I’m freakin deceased

“We’re not in denial now,” I say. He shakes his head slowly. “No, those days are well and truly over, Paige. No lies between us now. We can still play games…” “We’re good at those,” I say, and reach down to brush over his stomach. “Very. But you and I?” “Same team,” I murmur.

This book is actually exactly what I needed. I LOVE THESE TWO OMFG

“And cover up your guy thighs. We’re being professional here. I technically work for you, and I didn’t even know I had a thing for men’s legs until you came along with all that tatted skin and lean muscle.” “Me?” His head jerks back. “What about you? I get hard just looking at your legs.”

😭🫶

I mean truly how can u not love them

“You really picked a lock for me?” I teased, stepping through the gap. He smirked. “Broke the law for you.” “Romantic,” I said dryly.

Ironic LMAO

“I will love you for the rest of my life,” she whispers against my lips.
It’s a promise, coming from the most loyal woman I know. 
“Forever, Blue.”

I’m fucking UGLY CRYING.

“I’m sorry someone let you believe you were hard to love, because, Blue, it’s the easiest thing I’ve ever done.”😭😭😭💀💀😭😭

Cold coffee waiting for me in the fridge. Fresh flowers, though sometimes dead because he tried too hard to keep them alive, sitting on the kitchen island for me at home after every road trip.  Making sure I have food I can eat. Even giving me time to process my conversation with Alex. “Sometimes the quietest love is the loudest,” she continues.

So when I kill myself, it’ll be bc Ryan Shay is fictional. Ty

Ryan Shay is celibate. 
What did we, as the female population, do to deserve this? 

💀💀💀💀💀

I pull my book off the nightstand, needing a fictional boyfriend to distract me from how much I liked hearing see you at home from my very real roommate. 

I love my babies

“EZ has a girlfriend!” “And it’s our Stevie of all people!”  “Have you guys fucked on the plane yet?” “Okay, that’s my sister,” Ryan interjects. 

I’m fucking cackling every time poor Ryan has to interrupt and remind everyone that she’s his sister 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

“So, ‘Vee’, huh?” “It’s a family nickname.”  “My family nickname is Zee. Vee and Zee. Aren’t we fucking adorable?” 

Anything I want to talk about—the shelter or the funky little thrift store I stumbled upon last week, are all going to be met with my mother’s disapproval, and I don’t want her to taint the things I love.

Please get out of my HEAD

Clearing my throat, I pull my gaze away from number eleven. “That’s Evan Zanders.”  “Well, what’s he like?” “Arrogant. Show-off. In love with himself. Takes more time getting ready than most women. Gets in a lot of fights on the ice.”  Loves his niece. Softer than he lets people know. Makes me feel good in more ways than one.

LOVEEEEE

Idk why all you haters talk sm crap ab this book. STEVIE AND ZEE WERE THE BLUEPRINT!!!!!!! I LOVE MY BABIES !!!!! Reread #2 somehow is soooo much better than the first!!

There are things I want to say: Just because you’re talented doesn’t mean you owe it to anyone. The only thing you owe your dad is to find your happiness. Move to Chicago. Don’t leave Max. Don’t leave me.

Please I cannot DO THISSSS I LOVE THEM!!!!!! MALAKAI RHOOOOOOOOOOOOODES THE MAN U AAAAAAAAARE

Miller and KAAAAAAAAAI

I am so excited to re-experience Malakai big daddy Rhodes again this reread yall NO MMC HAS HIT THE SAME SINCE!!!!!!

Patro and Achilles guys pls.

I’m legitimately so confused

I’ve stopped here for several hours bc I. am. AFRAID.