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svidrigailov holy fuck you pedo i hope raskolnikov my consensual king, kicks you

HELLO THAT ENDING FOR PART 5???? but honestly, the way he tried to 'justify' his actions is so absurd to me. even significantly more absurd was the way the lady passed... but i still love it.

reached part 5 out of 6... but wow, talk about subverting expectations??? i definitely wasn't expecting that, however much i'll still be skeptical.

i am so sorry for ever doubting you, fyodor... this turn was the least expected and it proves one thing, pyotr's a birch and im glad dunya did what she rightfully did, as well as her mama and bro and friend supporting her.

also, nice enough, im reading (as apposed to gaming) before snoozing... ovid really is right when he wrote about the constant of change being the only reliable thing

even after a century and a half, the discussion regarding ordinary and extraordinary and how the divide allows the extraordinary to commit crime but isn't convicted... is so sadly relevant.

lmao pyotr is such a pompous asshole for not wanting to see dunya's bro because "he offended me"

entered Part 3 of 5; the last chapter of Part 2, when he forked out his cash and it also mentions how he felt a relief rushing over him, reminds me of how in tlou2, abby's part, abby saved lev and yara and says that she did that to get her mind of things... nice how similar the connotations are, under pretty similar situations too.

maddening (complimentary) how i actually felt the delusions that my man was going through. i also admired the narrative structure, a lot more reliant on hearsay and pov's than the conventional type, particularly on how they're trying to discuss what tf happened

when it happened, bet your ass i was as shocked!!! all i can say, 100 pages in, ts is a breeze to read and i love it.

also, so glad to finally order the silmarillion by tolkien (now only needing to get part 2. the 2 towers) and the ancient sorceries & other stories book, whom the writer, argenon, was the biggest inspo for lovecraft!

forgor to log, but yesterday was so busy bc i was at a christmas event... only got to read this an hour before i slept; only reason why i even wanted to is bc of the chillness presented, loved it

✅ Why I Write
✅ Decline of the English Murder
✅ Books vs. Cigarettes (valid)

needed to pick something that's easily carried outside because as captivating as Crime & Punishment is, the size is much bigger than the usual Penguin black Classics; Collins Classics are the perfect one. as for the 3 essays? it's very chill so far, i love it. also, b vs c is our current argument but against games of screen times lmao

what happened? oh, a person yapping for pages at a time, or a letter extending to 10 pages or the internal thoughts of said letter... what did i come out of it? man, i am in love with how dostoyevsky just wrote in broad strokes, in chapters at a time to pontificate of things we have as passing thoughts, here expanded to the depths just enough.

hallmark of a good story? wanting to read some more before sleeping

tbf, the intro was a good hefty one; but as for chapter 1? alr off to what i come to expect of dostoyevsky, after reading 4 of his works. love the gradual, mundanity of stuff, while the morbid shit creeping in. already miles ahead of The Secret Agent (sorry not sorry)

sorry i'm calling it quits; like how tf did it get interesting, only to dilute itself to being in tangents? bc even yesterday, i alr had an inkling that the prose of infusing politics felt so performative? not gonna end the year on a dud so, will leave it as a dnf and pick it up when i wanna 🤷🏻‍♀️ sorry conrad

the first 2 chapters was literally about a couple of underground dudes yapping about the such horrendous things, being a 'secret agent' themselves... really political too? i am def in a for a ride!

also glad today i accidentally (like actually) found a copy of Defoe's A Journal of the Plague Year 🤭 the christmas miracle istg

thank god i brought this during the tea ceremony part of the wedding... cba to read another 10 pages bc it's 12am rn and im exhausted. may finish it tomorrow? god willing... but yeah, i'm gonna miss this a a lot

50 more pages and i'm gonna be done... i feel sadness bc of its immersion into the world, despite it being so old a work.

this part, while i still love sei's writing... some of her points are so off-base it's kinda entitled at parts; but hey, who'd say any different when you're a gentlewoman for an empress in 10th century japan? sometimes, all we need is sass and sei encompasses that

is this gonna be an absolute 5 stars? :)))

sei is so sassy sometimes, i see that aspect of talking back to their 'elders' and is shocked but also makes me feel seen; on a real note, she also has inspired me to write in prose of different senses (hearing or seeing) whenever i journal for the day; it's also insane that although it's just 120 pages, because of looking up stuff mentioned or the notes providing context, it feels so, lived-in?

the more i flip, the more i just find that besides her bickering at poor people, i think on surface level, we could've been friends; her turmoil regarding stuff, feels so tangible and relatable, although it's been a 1000 years gap

as advised by redditors and other websites that has opinions of this book, 15 pages of this, that took me 2 hours (searching up the various bugs, pools was so fun) and being exhausted; best to call it a day than mindlessly reading. i'm really loving how it's a portal into 10th century japanese bubble

the fact that the door being dragged noisily on the floor infuriates her in 10th century, is essentially the modern day 'door being slammed or closed too-loud' makes me love aspects of sei; queen stuff

okay wow, whoever actually dislikes this because it doesn't feel like a "cohesive" narration, like are you forgetting this is literally a journal entry? 16 pages alone (alongside Notes, illustrations and definitions) make it already such a unique read. i literally felt what she felt... also feeling so seen bc i write daily, and this def inspires me to be more descript

for a book that calls itself treasure island, it really doesn't give a flying fuck about the treasure

action and scuffles so far is pretty okay; just can't wrap around the fact at one point the dude says "wow, you're white like me" and immediately goes off a line about being comfortable because of it like... ._.

oop- forgot to log yesterday; drama is happening